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"Hey what's wrong
Sage?" He can't stand to see me sad.
Yet I sit here, shotgun, in his passenger seat, with nothing
but pain swimming in my deep brown eyes after the most amazing
night i have ever had with my boyfriend, Andy.
"Andy, hey listen, I think things have changed"
"Tell me about it, god things can never stay the
same," Andy says with a sigh
ugh he makes this so much more harder
"No, I mean, we have changed. Well, my feelings have
changed"
Tears are streaming down my face. I can't even bare to
look at him.
" Sage, come on now, what is all this?"
"I just can't be with you anymore, Andy. I'm
sorry."
"After that amazig night we just had? Did you just decide
this?"
"N-no, I've been feeling this way"
"So we went on this date so you can mock me? Is that it?
Or was it a pity date, Sage? I'd love to know!"
He's yelling now.
"I don't know."
I pause
"It's just complicated"
"Complicated? Good excuse. So these 2 years just end in
bullshit"
I can't even cough up the courage to
talk.
The rest of the drive home was in silence. The type of silence
that hurt so deep that you just can't get yourself to stop
crying.
As we pull up into my driveway, I open the door, walk out, and
turn around.
I looked at his face for the first time since we got in the
car.
"I'm so sorry" I say in a whisper, still
crying.
He closes his eyes, as if he were trying to think of something
to say.
But instead, he opened his eyes and turned his car back into
reverse.
I close the door and cough up, "Goodbye, Andy."
I love you.
I didn't mean to hurt him, at all. It's just, these
dreams I've been having, every single dream i have had for
the past 3 months has been the same. I see Andy, pain in his
eyes, looking at me through an open door. When i go closer, i
see him holding a locket, he opens it to show me, but then
starts getting farther and farther away. But I wake up right
before I get close enough to see the inside. A year ago , 5
months after I started dating Andy, my dad went missing in the
war. A couple days later, he was announced dead. The officers
said that the body was in no condition to be brought back here
for a proper funeral, and my heart broken mom didn't
question it. Although no one knows, i have always had that gut
feeling that my dad's alive, I just don't know who to
tell, or how to find out.
When the dreams started, I knew the locket was connected to my
dad. But I didn't know how to confront Andy, only because
it's a dream. How can Andy actually have the locket? I
couldn't give him my love the way he gave me his after the
first night of the dream. I couldn't bare to hurt him any
longer, so i had to end it. But i do love him, more than
anything.
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