If your heart is broken, read
this.
Sometimes people come into your life so
quickly that you don't want to believe they are really there.
Then they start to take your broken pieces & put you
together, like you are
a new puzzle they can't wait to solve. At that moment you
don't know how to feel. You don't know whether you should
help them put your own puzzle together or if you should lock your
pieces up in a box & ship it off to sea. But even if you hide
the pieces, they always seem to find a way to get them out of
you, because they "want to help" & you just want to
believe them. As naive, fragile, & broken as you are, you
just want to believe that this person is the one you've been
waiting for. That's when you start falling for them. You wake
up each morning knowing that they're going to be there, &
just talking to them for however long it may be makes you feel
like you won a lottery prize. It's amazing how one person has
this undeniable power to make you feel like you were never broken
to begin with, they put your puzzle together in record
timing & you can't help but smile & laugh &
you just feel infinite. Everyone notices the change & you
begin to feel that every single thing in the world is filled with
beauty. Like this whole
world was put together for you & you're just beginning to
see it all now as if you had been blinded by all your hurt &
misfortune in the past. The stars shine brighter & the
rain doesn't feel dreary anymore - it feels magical. But then
something happens inside yourself that you try to push away, but
it has an uncontrollable force attached to it & you can't
stop the feeling from escaping: fear. After the unmistakable
high, there always has to be a crash. Your head feels heavier as
your heart & mind begin to fight a war. Your head says to
guard your heart but your heart wants to be open to all the love
& joy you are finally being exposed to. Your head knows
better, but your heart wants to believe. Your heart wants to
believe that that one person won't leave, your heart trusts
that all their "pretty words" aren't just
"pretty lies". Your head gives up the fight and ends
the quarrel with a "I hope I don't need to say I told
you so". & your heart feels content. But little do you
know that reality isn't always a fairytale. All of a sudden
you get a feeling that something has gone terribly wrong, as if
you miscalculated & you're about to crash head on into a
world that never is what it appears to be. You begin to take a
notice that the person who was putting together your puzzle
suddenly got bored of working on the same thing day in & day
out. You scramble to find all the pieces to lock them away for
good, but some are missing, you can't find them all, &
you are left more incomplete that you started with. You were a
game & you had been played. It had happened so many times
before that you knew you should have been more prepared. But with
each new disappointment all you wanted was someone to believe in
- & who could really blame you? Every new person who entered
had a better entrance than the last, so you believed that the
better entrance was a sign of something extraordinary to come.
You are a dreamer & as a dreamer you should know that reality
doesn't always have a place for your dreams to unfold. So now
what is left for you? You close yourself off, you rebuild your
wall, & you find a safe place for your puzzle pieces to be
kept & never seen again. Although this all may seem like the
end of the world for you; it's not. Because things always
have a way of figuring themselves out. It's okay to cry,
& it's okay to feel broken & vulnerable. But there is
something you need to do; you need to promise yourself that you
won't give up. Because one day everything will turn around,
& the stars will shine brightly, & you won't feel so
alone. And even when you feel like you've lost everything;
just believe that one day someone will come & they won't
play you.....because you aren't the
game, you are the prize.