xXHelloFasinationXx

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Joined: November 28, 2011
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Location: The Upper Michigan eh;)
Gender: F




Quotes by xXHelloFasinationXx

Ever wonder like somethings missing, like somethings out of place, 
like you're meant for something more than what's written on your face? 
Ever wonder if it changes, what you live day to day? 
ever wonder if behind closed doors, there might be another way? 
Living in solitude is no way to live, 
sleepless nights are haunting with nothing to give 
 if you pace enough times across your bedroom floor
you think you'll find the courage to walk through the door
what do you want on the other side, is always the question to ask 
Right now it's easy, thinking of taking off the mask 
but what happens afterwards, when everythings said & done 
will the battle still be raging or will it be won? 

-original
She has no special qualities, not even a pretty face 
she's not even good enough for a single boy to chase 
Her GPA is lacking, while everyone pulls ahead 
Maybe she should just go crawl in a hole instead
 
All she wants is to be beautiful, to be stared at & admired, 
All she wants is to be quizzical, to be laughed with & desired 
But she was never good enough, still seen in black&white 
All she has is her cold stone thoughts & the useless talent to write




Original Poem 
My life is a story of never ending indecision
Glass that is cracked lacking provision
I'm under a microscope, teetering on the ropes
Trying to live up to everyones hopes

My mind is at war with the whims of two faces
I'm living a lie in a both of two places
I'm a person whose split, with her integrity found liable 

I wish my heart was a source I found reliable. 







Original Poem. 
 


My body’s lacking dopamine, my body’s lacking edge
That is why I’m feeling like I am on a ledge
Staring into nothingness, to world below my feet
My body’s lacking serotonin, my body’s lacking heat
 
These thoughts within my head, controlling the actions in my veins
Are all the things that prevent me from pulling back the reigns
I don’t know when to stop; I don’t know when to go

Sometimes I feel I’m losing complete & total control 



 
Original Poem By Me
Feed my monster Darling, There’s nothing left to save
Let me taste your poison, c’mon lets misbehave..
The world is full of toxins & the effects are sinking in
I’ve let you take control of me, the demon I’ve let win.
 
The world is full of colors, but you see only grey
Your love is only cynical but here again I stay
There’s something burning in you, a fire we can’t tame
I’ve seen another side of you; you’ll never be the same
 
I’ve become delirious, confused and mislead
I am losing part of me, you are in my head
We are not so separate, we have become one
I sit back and see the damage we have done  

-Original Poem By Me



I can feel the blood getting hot under my skin
No matter what I do, I just can’t win
So many things, that I just can’t explain
So many things that drive me insane
 
Have you ever just sat there & didn’t know what to think?
Just sitting there feeling your entire world sink
I just want to be happy, all my pain to disappear
But I don’t want to be weak, I don’t want to show fear..  
 
Lately I’ve been so confused, temptation at its worst
This anger it feels like damnation, almost like I’m cursed
I’ve created my own walls; in this prison I call my head
I’ve created this acrimony with the demons that I’ve fed.  

Original Poem
Beggars can't be choosers, my mother always said 
Practice what you preach, she had drilled into my head 
Through all the things she's taught me, through everything I've learned 
I still played with fire, and got severly burned 

The ticking on the clock seems to go slower & slower still 
All this empty time, that I don't know how to kill 
You're still on my mind, through the day & through the night 
I still played with a dog, who I knew would bite 

Learn from your mistakes, I can still hear her speak 
& even though I've tried.. You still make me weak 
I try to stay away, it's for my own good 
But I never seem to do all the things I should.. 


-Original Poem 
 
You like to get drunk off whiskey & a little coke
You always seem to smell like axe & swisher smoke
You’ve got pretty blue eyes and smile that could kill
You’ve got the charm of the devil & the poison of a pill 

                                                                           -Original Poem
Where's Your Karma?
I lay awake, while you are sleeping

All my secrets are you keeping?
Make me a promise that you won’t break,
Tell me darling, are you real or fake?

Take the night, can you feel the high?
Don’t give me a story, if it’s just a lie.
You’ve wasted my time, you’re degenerate c*nt.
Don’t act so offended, you deserve my words blunt.

I can’t dispose of this anger, this vehement rage
It’s like an animal, trapped in a cage
You deserve nothing, yet you’re handed it all
I would give anything to watch you fall.

-Original Poem By me
Wrong Just Like Her
my thoughts are never silenced

my fear is never heard
why am I dwelling,
on something so absurd?

Was she ever this confused, so angry, so lost?
Has she ever woken with her heart fringed in frost?
Why are these things bothering me? I want to let it go
Maybe I’d be happy too, If I sunk just as low..

So tonight I light my cigarette and pour myself some wine.
Taking slow and shallow breaths, telling myself I’m fine
This is what you wanted dear, to be happy just like her
So say farewell to all you know, goodbye to who you were

 
-Original Poem By Me