xXpoetry_is_lifeXx

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My name is julia.
     Im your average teenage girl. I dream big and have a huge heart. my heart belongs to this amazing guy though. Ive been through a lot, and ive learned alot, im not looking for pity for anything, im just saying im good at advice, from experiences.
    Im outgoing and love music and poetry. Im very different and stand out, usually i act a little weird, but thats by choice

Get to know me, you wont regret it ; hopefully.

Quotes by xXpoetry_is_lifeXx

Cummon girls lets think this through,
                      It doesnt come down to "him and you"
                                 Maybe in your perfect world
                                          Your his only girl

None of us are smart enough to like the "right guy
             We like the ones who love to lie
                      So lets realize who really will treat us right
                             And dream about them for just one night <3

This quote is not pretty, because, its like the truth, usually >>>ugle<<<

And the funny thing i've learned about love;
                                   It hurts a Whole lot.
                                            All of us stupid girls give our all
                                           
  Love is like the lottery
                                            Everyone plays, some more than others
But in the end;
                             
>>>Not everyone wins<<<
                                   

Soooo Uhh ask away (: ?
 

Formspring.me/jules6209

Longer Than forever more than always, he said.
Okay witty people, i read all these amazing stories, and i thought I'd give one a shot, please don't comment on grammar errors, because, this IS my first draft...i will make it up as i type. Enjoy

Chapter 1

          Exactly one year later, I was sitting on those swings, those very same swings that i sat on right before everything i knew flipped upside down. If only I knew than what i know now. I would've made completely different decision. Instead im stuck, broken hearted and confused.
          As im swinging on the swing, the creaking of the joints reminds me of exactly a year ago, on this same swing. I strain my brian trying to remember each and every event. Finally a picture forms in my head.

 . . .
Day before memorial day, May 24th 2009

          First I look around, nothign has changed. The fireworks are booming overhead as i teeter on the swing, the announcer who comes every year, still announcing each type of firework. Than, as the picture solidifies in my head, details seperate reality from memory, creating a fine line into the past. I look around, absorbing all of these memories as if iwas a sponge. I see it, Jeydon, my best friend and my dad's girlfriend's grandson. About my age, tall stalky legs, at this time short dark brown hair. With him is my little brother, Daniel, a little tiny thing with glasses and short, hair the color of wheat.
          They play on the see-saw, watching the fireworks in awe. "Up...BOOM...Woah.!" The sound echoes in my head, remaining longer than i expect it. Than it comes, I new it was coming, for this was memory, of course. That first crunch and the screams brings to reality (or is it fantasy as a memory) what i knew was going to happen.
         Jeydon rushes over to me, looking at me to help my little brother. He has fallen off the see-saw. I know, it doesnt sound too awful bad, but the see-saws when they go up go almost over my head. Daniel is only a mere 4 feet tall, so it was a big fall. He landed on his wrist and was screaming an earsplitting yell.
          Carrying his tiny body would be no challenge for anyone else, but such a challenge for me. I have a weak ankle, and even his mere 60 pounds creates an spine shivering pain in my leg. Suddenly a kid, 15 or 16 comes up. I never caught his name, barely what he looks like, and he picks my brother up and goes "Where are your parents sitting?" I never thought I would appreciate a strangers help that much in my life.
          He was tall, and wore a hat, not a baseball cap, but more of a hat, almost like he was brittish. His blue eyes drove right into my heart, their softness radiating care and comfort if you were anywhere near him. He was a little odd, but i assumed he was just following different coustom manners. When he first spoke, he had a brittish accent to his voice. after dropping off my little brother with my parents he turned to me and goes "My fair lady, i assure you your brother is safe." is says bowing and kissing my hand, in an extremely thick english accent, which was intentional. "Would you wish to join me on the swings?" He asks. I, giggling, decide sure why not.
         I had never been interested in guys before, so, being around one as charming as this was new to me. We talked the rest of the night, about our lives. He was a quite interesting person. Talking about his travels and how much he loves to travel. I thought i was going to die when jeydon came over to come and fetch me. I look into the velvet black sky.
                     "What about fireworks?" I ask.
                     "Cass, They were over 20 minutes ago" he tells me, calling me my nickname. I usually go by Cassandra, but no matter how many times i tell him, he insists on calling me Cass.
                    "It was a pleasure talking to you Cass, I hope you have a wonderful future, for you are beautiful and intelligent" The boy says as he kisses my hand and walks off."
          I was in a daze the whole ride home. I never was interested in guys, at only 13 i felt too young. But not only was I charmed by this young gentleman, he seemed to have had interest in me. I concluded that guys weren't icky anymore. My crush and best friend, was about to hear the truth. I daze off to the sound of the music drifting through the car.

. . .

I shudder at the memory, If only i hadn't gotten interested in guys, just shut up. Maybe my life wouldn't have changed so much, maybe things would still be perfect. But nothings perfect, nothing lasts forever. My perfect forever though, was far from it, cut short with sharp scizzors, slicing through my perfect, fragile, paper, heart.

Her: Well, You're not going to see the [real] me
Him: Why not?
Her: Because I'm different.
Him: And thats exactly why i fell in love with 
                                    [you]
<3
I'm screaming and kicking with my arms up in the air,
                                                           
                                                           But by all means you just dont care. 

I smile, I lie, I pretend I'm okay, 
                                                             
                                                             When in the end I just want to say. 
          
    
"Stupid, stupid, stupid kid, just look at all the {{damage}} you did."
                 
                                                                                  xXpoetry_is_lifeXx
                                                                                                               *(original)*

Weeks feel like      {{months}}
Months feel like     {{years}}
I am going            {{insane}}
Without you          {{here}}
Your arms around   {{me}}
No more do I         {{feel}}
Pain in my             {{heart}}
Tells me it was       {{real}}
The fake smile I      {{wear}}
Doesn't travel to my{{eyes}}
Foolisly they don't    {{see}}
Through my devious {{disguise}}
You're not worth      {{it}}
I know that is         {{true}}
but it's impossible to{{live}}
a life without         
{{you}}

Husband and Wife
Julia Daly

Little, innocent girl,
Dropped into a reality world.
Life was turning into a nightmare,
What was happening just wasn't fair.
Divorce tore her family apart,
Causing them to go their seperate ways adn truy to restart.
Trying hard to understand,
Wondering why her family had to disband.
Haunting memories of the past,
Shattered dreams of what didn't last.
Trying to cope with her new life,
Slowly learning that no more are her parents husband and wife
No Love
Julia Daly

The world will pause in awe,
Not even a bird shall go caw.

We would all be in despair,
Almost like we had no air.

Life on earth woudl slowly desintigrate,
As empty hearts fill up with hate.

People will sink down to their lowest level,
Worse than anything that could be brought upon us by the devil.

...Cause nothing is worse than living in a world of no love.
No Love
Julia Daly

The world will pause in awe,
Not even a bird shall go caw.

We would all be in despair,
Almost like we had no air.

Life on earth woudl slowly desintigrate,
As empty hearts fill up with hate.

People will sink down to their lowest level,
Worse than anything that could be brought upon us by the devil.

...Cause nothing is worse than living in a world of no love.