xallie_cheerx

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Joined: March 25, 2008
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im allie
15 years young
Varsity cheerleader @ PHS(:
Im a Utah girl:)
Ive lost too much in my life.
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m.o.k.wow sissy, its been a year:( i still cry a lot when i think of you. i go back and read journal entries and photo comments from you, from a couple weeks before you died, and i wish more than anything that i could go back to those times and tell you that i love you, you were my best friend and for the longest time i didn't understand why you'd left me. it still doesn't make sence why you died in the crash instead of me. sometimes i wish it was me because then you could live out you dreams, 17 is still way too young to die. I still have bad dreams about that night, i wish i would of just walked home from dance instead, I miss doing cheer with you:/ it was a lot funner with you. Maggie agrees. hahh. My favorite memory of you was when i was cheering at junior high and you were in the stands and i was looking for you and you looked at me and gave me a huge smile, with your crazy hair and my name on your forehead and Brighton's jersey # on your cheek:) I have a big frame of us from that game:) It's been reallly hard at home, with Maggie getting pregnant, she decided to keep her, and she's going to name her Rileigh Maybel, after you:), but she broke up with her boyfriend, so she has to do it by her self.  A couple months after you left mom got a big jar out and labled it the "Missing May-May Jar" and when ever we miss you we write a memory or a letter to you and then put it in the jar and when mom told us about it i just thought it was the best idea because you always cared about our problems and you always let us talk with you. And lately i find myself writting in it more and more.. The other day we had to write a paper about our favorite person in the world and i wrote an entire 3 pages about you and she asked me to read it to the class, and i got up there and said your name and started balling my eyes out. i know some people may think im too sensitive about it, i dont think they've lost their favorite person ever. People say im quieter now, but i think i just grew up going through that, the beach house is soooo boring with out you:( I miss when we would go on the boardwalk with Maggie and hit on random guys:) I always loved how me you and Maggie were so close in age. it made things so much easier. I still miss how on Sundays, since we can't watch tv you would sit at the piano for hours and just play random thing and try to make up words. And then mom would tell you to stop and you ALWAYS would sing "mommas telling me to stop, but i dont think so, uh uh! yeahhh!" then she would just laugh and you would keep playing:) I miss you so much May and so do Maggie, Brighton Brigham and Ayelor. Its not the same without you at home, we love yyou....
R.I.P. 6-20-91 - 11-15-08




Quotes by xallie_cheerx

I don't want to be just another one of your memories.

I love you, no lie.

 Trust me, I'm not like most girls.

 heart break is never easy. 
it's a pain that will alway find it's way back into your heart,
it's a memory that you'll never want to remember,
but relive everyday. 
you'll want to forget everything special about that relationship,
but want to hold on to those moments that made you smile for days.
you'll want to be so mad at him for how he hurt you.
but you'll want to keep loving him
.
heart break is never easy.



minee:)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 I never knew how much he meant to me, 
until I lost him.
 supporting the fighters
 admireing the survivors
 honoring the taken
            and never, ever giving up hope.            
 

moments when lost can’t be found again.
they’re just gone
-the summer i turned pretty.

 C H E E R
it's  what  i  do.
 &+i know i say i don't like you anymore.
but, truth is:
i'm dying without you.
 no honey.
you didn't hurt me.
you completely destroyed me.