xbeautifulx_Xnightmare

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Joined: November 13, 2009
Last Seen: 6 years
Birthday: October 18
user id: 93512
Gender: F
 
 A day to be
Hai. My names LilyJane. I had another account on here called Smiile4mehbabe24, but i don't use it anymore.
 I'm a pretty easy person to get along with and I love meating new friends, the only problem with that?, well I'm what you would call,,, socially awkward ; ) so don't be shy! I try to live bythe motto "Never regret, becuase at one poiint it was exactly what you wanted. I live for turning awkward moments into funny situations.
 
I also live by myyy sellf motto of, "If I can't help myself, I will help other people." I live by this because I battle daily with severe depression. It's not that I've had an abosolutely terrible liife, I've just been through alot of unneeded situations. Not too mention I've got a chemicle problem going on. No biggie. Life must go on? Right? Right. : I
 
I hate when people leave me. Not in a clingy way, but in a "I was so used to being great friends with you and suddenly you go and backstab me ya sonofabitch!"
I'm extremely random, and try to be full of energy as much as I can.
16
God is my rock.
Sophmore in Highschool, woooh.
I like helping people or just listening to vents, so don't hesitate : )
I like watching anime, and I read alot. I also love hanging with friends.
Random fact, I am bisexual, don't like it, don't talk to me, or don't mention it. Nuff said.
 
Things I hate;
School.
People who lie.
People who are fake.
Life. ; )
People who leave.
People who try to tell me:
1.) Who I Am,
2.) What I did,
3.) What I'm Doing.
Heart Break</3
 
 
Things I love;
My best friend.
Writing stories and poems.
Being a kid.
Not caring.
Shopping.
The scent of new cars : D
Guy friends who respect you.
&& Rain<3 ; D
 
Music?;;
I'll like anything thats not country
along with most hip hop -_-
[No Order]
The Killers, Belle and Sebastian,
Linkin Park, Avenged Sevenfold,
Secondhand Serenade, Snow Patrol,
DeathCabForCutie, Madona, Linka,
The Shins, ARCTIC MONKEYS,
Dead By Surnise, I Set My Friends On Fire,
Tearwave, Stars, Bon Iver, Blink 182,
Morgan Lawrence, Greenday,
Annnddddd Yeahhh
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Oh hai there.
Do you like these trees?
I do. 

Well.  Let's see.  I like grammar.  Grammar is my best friend.
I guess I'm a person, but honestly, I don't think I am.
I think I'm something else.

This is like a diary.
Please respect it.














Hi.
Well, this is awkward.
Should we shake hands?
J.k. human contact is gross. : D
So I am me, Lily.
I am lots of things.
I'd like to think that I am everything,
I just haven't reached it yet,
or that maybe I can reach it,
but never will.
Everything is here for me,
but it just isn't tangible.
Everything is in the space that
surrounds us, and I am inside space,
therefore, can't I be everything too?
Can't I fade into it all?
The everythings and nothings?
See my thought process?
I'm kind of odd.























































 

Dyoknowhaiitblover?
A half of a whole?

 

Okay, here's the basic run-down:
 
~Junior in the fall, 16 as of Oct 18th
~God is a rock
~Bisexual
~Not a fan of bull shit, so take it else where
~ I love talking to people
~Everyday I'm Tumblin' <- ask?
~Not a fan of facebook
~Currently I have to pee
~Leaveee someeee lovvvinn's?
~I kinda prefer black and white quotes
 
-Want to know a good way to piss me off?
Typing like you have no fingers.
So please, if you can help it,
dnt typ lik dis.


"Be humble foyou are made of earth. Be
nobl
e for you are made of stars. "

 

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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5428013
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I think that you should have just told your friend about it right then and there. If you guys aren't absolute best friends, I'd go to the party with your other friends. But if this girl means a lot to you, and is your best friend no matter what, you need to think about where your loyalty lies. Also, be careful if you start liking him. She seems really angry and upset about being tossed aside, so you're treading on thin water.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5388608
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IIIIIIIII wannnaa tellll youuuu, hoooww muchhh, I lovee youuu
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5388502
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But its not on you. Yeah, you went over there and put yourself in a crappy position, but we're teenagers, and that's just what we do. Did you know that he was going to be doing those things? Because, while you were going over there, he knew fully well what was going to happen and what he'd do to you. You couldn't have possibly predicted how you would feel now. But the thing is, all of that was his decision. That's all on him. The only choice you made was showing up. Any girl would freeze and stay quiet.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5388502
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Oh my goodness. That's disgusting. When I was going into ninth grader, my boyfriend from then fingered me in public so that I couldn't say anything. And when we were alone he'd always try to do something and it was just gross. That in no way is comparable to what you went through, but I can garuntee you that so many have had experiences similar to this, therefore that's so good that you had the courage and strength to post this on here. Especially so that your friends can know. Hopefully, they'll be supportive and help you instead of ignoring it. I'm so sorry. Regarding the STD, honestly if you had one, you would definetly be able to tell by now. And let me tell you something about "". Just because you didn't try to stop it doesn't mean that you weren't . This emotional trauma you have is related to PTSD which is post traumatic stress disorder, so basically when things similar or relative to a traumatic event, you will freak out. Unfortunately, situations like this take years of therapy of self esteem, self assurance, and self reliability training to overcome. The best thing that you can do for yourself is the one thing you don't want to do- telling your parents or a trusted adult. He wont kill you. Those are threats to keep you quiet. And he can't kill you if he's in jail.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5300580
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Oh my gosh I thought I was the only one who tried to make perfume.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5349118
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-_-' I'm not embarrassed about my clothes, I'm embarrassed of his two thousand friends seeing my thong.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5242892
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Well I know that the sports bra was invented for the girl astronauts going into space. The more you know~
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5228457
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El oh el only if Light and L get married. I'm just joking, go for it.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5226181
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I'd go with a stripper. Or a video game.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5204018
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I literally think this every time we have a lock down drill.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5199747
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I know people who HATE reading but read that book. Do it. Doooo iiitt O.O
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166346
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its Ok wer not mad :[
Like what the heck man. I'm. Sorry. I. Really. Don't. GRAMMAR HOLLLLA~
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166250
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Well EXXXCUUUSSSEEEE MEEEE princess
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166216
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Holllllla~
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166226
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Good!
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166082
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Alright, so, sorry but for some reason when I go to comment on your profile, it wont let me? That may be a layout coding issue. So what ever it is, I'm just going to comment here.
Maybe there's nothing you CAN do until she's comfortable with sharing it. And oh, I didn't know that you were one of us O . O Aha I wouldn't have said all of that. It just gets annoying when people find out that there friends self harm and they don't know what to do and it's like, , you don't DO anything. But that's different now since you also have hurt yourself that she knows.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166082
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Coming from someone who has self harmed, attempted suicide, and dealt with depression most of her life- honestly, there's not much you can do. What helps is not laughing at it. Also, it helps to stop pretending like you understand what she's going through. Instead of trying to connect her problems to your problems or anyone elses problems, try to understand that what she's going through doesn't seem normal to her. The only thing you really can do is to listen to her when she needs to talk, and encourage her to talk, and tell her that you don't mind, and that it doesn't feel like she's complaining to you. Understand that you will never be able to relate to this. That's about it.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166022
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Yes yes?
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5166035
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Then there's no point in waiting for something to grow that's already dead. Sometimes you have to realize it sucks and decide if you're done waiting or if you don't mind waiting.
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xbeautifulx_Xnightmare 1 decade ago on quote #5146077
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LOLOLOLOLOLOL AAHAHHAAHHAA AHAHAHAHAA HAHAHAH! THIS IS PERFECT.
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