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The
Truth Is...
Chapter 39
“Well, after everything happened with us, I spiraled out of control. I got really depressed, and life at home got worse. I started to wonder if there was a way out, and one day I found it. It started with just bruises, you know, hitting myself “accidentally” or running into stuff. Soon, that wasn’t enough. When I was shaving, I’d purposefully cut myself. That made me feel better, but after awhile, that didn’t help anymore. So, I took the razor out of it, and one say I slit my wrists.” I gasped. I never would’ve guessed. “I’m sorry, go on,” I breathed. “I know, this is a shock to you, but ok. So, I was in the bathtub, because I figured that way my mom wouldn’t have to clean up the blood, she could just kind of wash it away, you know?” he asked, giving my hand a squeeze. Slowly, I nodded. “Well, Joey misheard my mom when she said I was taking a shower, and he thought she wanted him to go take a bath.” “No,” I breathed. Joey is Bryen’s younger brother. I think he’s 5 now, but I’m not sure. “Yeah. I guess he screamed and got my mom. I got admitted, and when I got out, I couldn’t go back home. I can’t even look at Joey now,” he sighed, his eyes starting to water. “I know, Lizzy doesn’t understand what happened with me, but it’s hard for me to look at her still. Hey, can I ask you something?” “Of course.” “Do you truly love me?” “Yes.” “Then you’d do anything for me?” I asked, eyeing the ledge. He followed my gaze. “Well, the truth is-” The rest of his sentence was broken off as he kissed me and we fell, tumbling off the cliff, in our final embrace. And in that spilt second before we hit the ground, I finally knew I was loved.
The End!!!
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Chapter 39
“Well, after everything happened with us, I spiraled out of control. I got really depressed, and life at home got worse. I started to wonder if there was a way out, and one day I found it. It started with just bruises, you know, hitting myself “accidentally” or running into stuff. Soon, that wasn’t enough. When I was shaving, I’d purposefully cut myself. That made me feel better, but after awhile, that didn’t help anymore. So, I took the razor out of it, and one say I slit my wrists.” I gasped. I never would’ve guessed. “I’m sorry, go on,” I breathed. “I know, this is a shock to you, but ok. So, I was in the bathtub, because I figured that way my mom wouldn’t have to clean up the blood, she could just kind of wash it away, you know?” he asked, giving my hand a squeeze. Slowly, I nodded. “Well, Joey misheard my mom when she said I was taking a shower, and he thought she wanted him to go take a bath.” “No,” I breathed. Joey is Bryen’s younger brother. I think he’s 5 now, but I’m not sure. “Yeah. I guess he screamed and got my mom. I got admitted, and when I got out, I couldn’t go back home. I can’t even look at Joey now,” he sighed, his eyes starting to water. “I know, Lizzy doesn’t understand what happened with me, but it’s hard for me to look at her still. Hey, can I ask you something?” “Of course.” “Do you truly love me?” “Yes.” “Then you’d do anything for me?” I asked, eyeing the ledge. He followed my gaze. “Well, the truth is-” The rest of his sentence was broken off as he kissed me and we fell, tumbling off the cliff, in our final embrace. And in that spilt second before we hit the ground, I finally knew I was loved.
The End!!!
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The Truth Is...
Chapter 38
Morning arrived too soon. I woke up in Bryen’s arms, and everything felt so right for once. “Bryen,” I whispered, nudging him awake. “Unngghh. Oh! Good morning, Holly,” he half-smiled, trying to wake up. “Sorry for waking you.” “Don’t be,” he yawned. “D-do we have to talk about last night?” I asked, hesitantly. He sighed, “I know you don’t want to, and normally I’d respect that. But yes, we do have to talk about it.” “Okay. Well, could we go back up to our place? I know it sounds silly, but I feel more comfortable there with you.” “I understand,” he said softly, rising from the bed. We got dressed and made our way to Surylian Hill, holding hands, but not saying much. As we sat on the edge, he sighed. “Holly, I need to ask you something.” Uh-oh. “Yeah?” “Did the-uh-program help you? I mean, do you ever think about just, ending it?” Oh no, I’m not sure that I like where this is going. I don’t want to tell him the truth, but after all of this, I can’t lie. “No. Yes.” I laughed, “No, the program didn’t help. I thought it did at first, but when I got home, things seemed just as bad. Yes, I think about killing myself. A lot.” I paused. “Like, in class a lot, when I space out, I’m thinking of ways to die.” That was probably too much. I’ve never told anyone that. “Oh,” he sighed. “So, are you going to tell me what happened with you?” I asked. “Well, I might as well, huh?” he smirked.
Chapter 38
Morning arrived too soon. I woke up in Bryen’s arms, and everything felt so right for once. “Bryen,” I whispered, nudging him awake. “Unngghh. Oh! Good morning, Holly,” he half-smiled, trying to wake up. “Sorry for waking you.” “Don’t be,” he yawned. “D-do we have to talk about last night?” I asked, hesitantly. He sighed, “I know you don’t want to, and normally I’d respect that. But yes, we do have to talk about it.” “Okay. Well, could we go back up to our place? I know it sounds silly, but I feel more comfortable there with you.” “I understand,” he said softly, rising from the bed. We got dressed and made our way to Surylian Hill, holding hands, but not saying much. As we sat on the edge, he sighed. “Holly, I need to ask you something.” Uh-oh. “Yeah?” “Did the-uh-program help you? I mean, do you ever think about just, ending it?” Oh no, I’m not sure that I like where this is going. I don’t want to tell him the truth, but after all of this, I can’t lie. “No. Yes.” I laughed, “No, the program didn’t help. I thought it did at first, but when I got home, things seemed just as bad. Yes, I think about killing myself. A lot.” I paused. “Like, in class a lot, when I space out, I’m thinking of ways to die.” That was probably too much. I’ve never told anyone that. “Oh,” he sighed. “So, are you going to tell me what happened with you?” I asked. “Well, I might as well, huh?” he smirked.
The
Truth Is...
Chapter 37
“Holly, wake up!” “Huh? Wha?,” I panicked, sitting straight up. “It’s ok, it was only a dream,” Bryen whispered, stroking my hair. “I-you-he-what’s going on?” “You were screaming in your sleep, I thought you were getting murdered or something.” He laughed, “I was sleeping over there on the floor.” He pointed to a pile of bedding in the corner, “But when I heard you, I ran right over to see what was going on. You were just having a bad dream,” he laughed. I started crying. “Oh, honey, what’s wrong? Is that what happened? Did he hurt you?” “No,” I sobbed, “He hurt you!” “Shhh, baby. I’m fine. I’m right here, just go back to sleep. We’ll sort this out in the morning. You need to sleep.” “I-I can’t sleep anymore. I’m scared,” I admitted. “Okay,” he sighed. “Now, don’t hurt me, this is only a suggestion. Would you like me to sleep with you?,” he asked, blushing slightly. I nodded, “On one condition.” “What’s that?” “We sleep in your bed.”
Chapter 37
“Holly, wake up!” “Huh? Wha?,” I panicked, sitting straight up. “It’s ok, it was only a dream,” Bryen whispered, stroking my hair. “I-you-he-what’s going on?” “You were screaming in your sleep, I thought you were getting murdered or something.” He laughed, “I was sleeping over there on the floor.” He pointed to a pile of bedding in the corner, “But when I heard you, I ran right over to see what was going on. You were just having a bad dream,” he laughed. I started crying. “Oh, honey, what’s wrong? Is that what happened? Did he hurt you?” “No,” I sobbed, “He hurt you!” “Shhh, baby. I’m fine. I’m right here, just go back to sleep. We’ll sort this out in the morning. You need to sleep.” “I-I can’t sleep anymore. I’m scared,” I admitted. “Okay,” he sighed. “Now, don’t hurt me, this is only a suggestion. Would you like me to sleep with you?,” he asked, blushing slightly. I nodded, “On one condition.” “What’s that?” “We sleep in your bed.”
The Truth Is...
Chapter 36
“Bryen, I am NOT sleeping in your bed.” “Why not? It’s clean, I promise,” he winked. “I’m already enough of a burden, I’m not going to take up your room, too. I’m more than happy to sleep on the couch.” “Well, that’s where I’m sleeping and I thought you didn’t want to sleep near me, remember?” I smiled, “I’m not sleeping in your room, and if you’re going to take the couch, then I guess I’ll just have to sleep over here on the floor,” I played, starting to lay out a blanket. “Okay, you win! I am most certainly not letting you sleep on the floor. You can have the couch! Although I still think you’d be more comfortable in my bed.” He’s so cute, the way he’s so protective. “Nah, I’m fine with the couch. But really, thanks,” I said. “Holly, how many times do I have to tell yo-” I cut him off with a light kiss. “For everything,” I finished. “Holly, I-” I blushed, really bright, “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have-I just-I-uh-” “Holly.” “Yeah?” “Relax, babe,” he whispered as he came to me and kissed me, the best kiss he’s ever given me.
Chapter 36
“Bryen, I am NOT sleeping in your bed.” “Why not? It’s clean, I promise,” he winked. “I’m already enough of a burden, I’m not going to take up your room, too. I’m more than happy to sleep on the couch.” “Well, that’s where I’m sleeping and I thought you didn’t want to sleep near me, remember?” I smiled, “I’m not sleeping in your room, and if you’re going to take the couch, then I guess I’ll just have to sleep over here on the floor,” I played, starting to lay out a blanket. “Okay, you win! I am most certainly not letting you sleep on the floor. You can have the couch! Although I still think you’d be more comfortable in my bed.” He’s so cute, the way he’s so protective. “Nah, I’m fine with the couch. But really, thanks,” I said. “Holly, how many times do I have to tell yo-” I cut him off with a light kiss. “For everything,” I finished. “Holly, I-” I blushed, really bright, “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have-I just-I-uh-” “Holly.” “Yeah?” “Relax, babe,” he whispered as he came to me and kissed me, the best kiss he’s ever given me.
The Truth Is...
Chapter 35
“Woah,” he breathed. “So, you aren’t mad at me?” I waited anxiously for his answer. “No. I mean, yes. I don’t know, Holly.” “Can we sit down and work this out, please? I want to know what’s going on with you,” I pleaded. It was true, I’ve always wanted him to tell me more. “Why don’t we start with what’s going on with you. I’ve never seen you come up here alone since, you know, why now?” I know he’s trying to avoid talking about himself, but I really need someone to talk to. “My life is falling apart. I’m not even sure why I’m still bothering to live,” I said, surprisingly calm. “What’s wrong, Holly?” I broke down and told him everything that had been going on. “Shhhh,” he soothed as he wrapped his sweatshirt and arm around me. “It’ll all be okay. You’re going to be alright. I’m here, Holly. It’s okay, I’m here.” “How are things going to be okay? I got kicked out of my house. I have nowhere to go! I’m so confused,” I sobbed. “You could stay with me,” he said hesitantly. What? Oh yeah, I heard that he moved out and has his own apartment. But living together? I know he’s trying to help, but I’m not sure this is the right way. “Um, I don’t think that’s a good idea,” I said, the crying beginning to cease. “Why not? We aren’t together, we’re still friends, and I want to help you.” “Okay.” I said hesitantly, “But only for a little bit. And we sleep in separate rooms.” He laughed, “Holly, you’re too cute. For the big façade you put on, one would think you’d be a little less…” “Less what?” I said, somewhat offended. “Innocent,” he laughed.
Chapter 35
“Woah,” he breathed. “So, you aren’t mad at me?” I waited anxiously for his answer. “No. I mean, yes. I don’t know, Holly.” “Can we sit down and work this out, please? I want to know what’s going on with you,” I pleaded. It was true, I’ve always wanted him to tell me more. “Why don’t we start with what’s going on with you. I’ve never seen you come up here alone since, you know, why now?” I know he’s trying to avoid talking about himself, but I really need someone to talk to. “My life is falling apart. I’m not even sure why I’m still bothering to live,” I said, surprisingly calm. “What’s wrong, Holly?” I broke down and told him everything that had been going on. “Shhhh,” he soothed as he wrapped his sweatshirt and arm around me. “It’ll all be okay. You’re going to be alright. I’m here, Holly. It’s okay, I’m here.” “How are things going to be okay? I got kicked out of my house. I have nowhere to go! I’m so confused,” I sobbed. “You could stay with me,” he said hesitantly. What? Oh yeah, I heard that he moved out and has his own apartment. But living together? I know he’s trying to help, but I’m not sure this is the right way. “Um, I don’t think that’s a good idea,” I said, the crying beginning to cease. “Why not? We aren’t together, we’re still friends, and I want to help you.” “Okay.” I said hesitantly, “But only for a little bit. And we sleep in separate rooms.” He laughed, “Holly, you’re too cute. For the big façade you put on, one would think you’d be a little less…” “Less what?” I said, somewhat offended. “Innocent,” he laughed.
The
Truth Is...
Chapter 34
I don’t know how long I cried for; by the time I finally stopped I was nearing Surylian Hill. I thought about crying more, but I had no tears left. I sat on the edge of the cliff for a long time. I didn’t even hear someone sit beside me. “If you’re thinking of jumping, there’s faster ways.” I instinctively jumped back, away from the cliff, at the sound of his voice. “Trust me, I know. And Bryen? Please go away,” I mumbled. “Holly, I’m not going anywhere. Tell me what’s going on,” he soothed as he edged closer to me. I did, and he sat there in silence, his arm around me, letting me take my time. When I was finished, he simply breathed, “Wow.” “Yeah, so that’s my f*cked up life. Worse than you thought, huh?” “Yes, it is. Holly, I never realized how strong you were to keep all of that inside. I underestimated you and I’m sorry.” “Yeah, I’m not perfect. Hate to break it to you, but we can’t all be like you.” “You think I’m perfect?” “Well, yeah..” “Holly, look.” He pulled me so that I was facing him and rolled up his sleeves. “Do you think this is perfect?! I’m a mess, too, Holly. You aren’t the only one.” What? But, why? “Bryen, I’m so sorry. I had no idea-” “Exactly. You don’t know me, so don’t pretend to,” he shouted as he got up. “Bryen, please, don’t leave me!” “Why not?” He countered as he turned around, “That’s what I’ve always been best at, right? Do you know why I didn’t call you while you were away? Because I was away, too!” “Bryen, wait!” “What now!?” “I love you,” I sighed as I reached up and kissed him.
Chapter 34
I don’t know how long I cried for; by the time I finally stopped I was nearing Surylian Hill. I thought about crying more, but I had no tears left. I sat on the edge of the cliff for a long time. I didn’t even hear someone sit beside me. “If you’re thinking of jumping, there’s faster ways.” I instinctively jumped back, away from the cliff, at the sound of his voice. “Trust me, I know. And Bryen? Please go away,” I mumbled. “Holly, I’m not going anywhere. Tell me what’s going on,” he soothed as he edged closer to me. I did, and he sat there in silence, his arm around me, letting me take my time. When I was finished, he simply breathed, “Wow.” “Yeah, so that’s my f*cked up life. Worse than you thought, huh?” “Yes, it is. Holly, I never realized how strong you were to keep all of that inside. I underestimated you and I’m sorry.” “Yeah, I’m not perfect. Hate to break it to you, but we can’t all be like you.” “You think I’m perfect?” “Well, yeah..” “Holly, look.” He pulled me so that I was facing him and rolled up his sleeves. “Do you think this is perfect?! I’m a mess, too, Holly. You aren’t the only one.” What? But, why? “Bryen, I’m so sorry. I had no idea-” “Exactly. You don’t know me, so don’t pretend to,” he shouted as he got up. “Bryen, please, don’t leave me!” “Why not?” He countered as he turned around, “That’s what I’ve always been best at, right? Do you know why I didn’t call you while you were away? Because I was away, too!” “Bryen, wait!” “What now!?” “I love you,” I sighed as I reached up and kissed him.
You said you love me, you lied.
You dumped me, I cried.
You dated my best friend, I died.
(Completely mine, please don't steal. If you want to use it, ask.)
You dumped me, I cried.
You dated my best friend, I died.
(Completely mine, please don't steal. If you want to use it, ask.)
And I've come to the ultimate
conclusion:
Love does not exist.
Love does not exist.
I spend my coldest nights
alone,
awake,
and thinking of,
the weekend we were
in love..
alone,
awake,
and thinking of,
the weekend we were
in love..
So, today I was talking to one of my
newer guy friends. Apparently he likes me, but I don't like him
that way. He's had a really hard life, but I didn't really
know about it until earlier. He told me that when I rejected him he
cut himself again...I don't know what to do....