xoxalex

Status: 191026
Joined: July 5, 2011
Last Seen: 3 years
user id: 191026
Gender: F
Hello, I'm Alex and I want to inspire people and change lives.
 
I'm 18, a freshman in college.
I like music. Yeah, music is cool.
So is chinese food.
I take selfies for a living.
I stalk One Direction.
I'm literally obessesed with pizza-
like, I actually wrote my english essay on pizza.
I watch action movies & listen to 80's rock
I have 2 weirdo best friends, who are weird.
I'm actually pretty annoying.....
& some people say I'm funny?
 

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comment a song you listen to when you're sad so
1. I will have a list of sad songs to listen to
2. We all will have a list of sad songs to listen to


 
 
It happened again.

Two years ago I fell for him. He was the funniest, sweetest guy ever. He became my best friend. He walked me to class, he flirted with me every moment we were together, he made me laugh constantly, he stood up for me around his friends, he put up with my stupidity. Then one day he just stopped. He didn't even talk to me for weeks. It took me months to get over him, but I did.

Last year on the first day of school I saw him walking down the hallway. I was ready to ignore him so I looked the other way but of course he noticed me. He hit me flirtily on the head with his papers and his face just brighened when he said my name. And in that moment I knew it was happening all over again. But it soon ended and towards the middle of the year I went back to silently passing him in the hallways trying to look the other way.

But you wanna know what happened today? I was at work putting some clothes away on the racks. I just so happened to look over and I saw him standing there. I didn't want him to see me so I tried to hurry. I looked up as I was about to walk away and then he looked over so I quickly turned around and got back to work.

I felt it again. I felt that flutter in my stomach. But I didn't want to fall for him for a third time. I tried to ignore him but I ran out of other things to do. Eventually I had to walk past him and he was looking at me so I said hey just to be friendly. He smiled and said "Hey Sam, how's it going?"

Nothing wrong with that, right?

Wrong.

My name is Alex.
 





 

 

i never knew how good i really was at hiding the pain   


I was gone for a week on vacation and I came back and saw all these quotes about all this witty drama and how this is a warzone or something stupid, I don't even know, but there's not one quote I see about what actually happened and I'm just confused, you feel me?
i'm thinking about going vegan does anyone have any tips?

can i buy a thigh gap online
did you know
that the word teenager didn't even
exist till about 70 years ago?



i finally felt strong enough to tell my friends i had an eating disorder
but when i did, they said nothing, stared at me and just changed 
the subject. i don't know what i was expecting them to say, but i didn't
expect them to brush it off like it was nothing. i don't even know how i 
feel anymore







i feel like i don't matter to anyone anymore

 



i feel like i'm constantly letting down everyone