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So I really like this guy. & we kinda talked last year and this year he is in one of my classes. Well he's been looking at me. I mean not staring I don't think? But my BestFriend today told me how he looked at me then looked away at lunch and then when he stood in front of my lunch table she said he looked at my five times I mean I know it could be nothing and this is kinda first grade but I thought I could go for a second opinion. If you could tell me what you think that'd be great (: 
Just Need to Vent, Read/Comment/Fav Whatever youd like just please dont judge.

I have a pretty good life great family great friends I have God on my side. I use to have a pretty bad life when i was doing bad things but im better now. But you know why im so depressed? So upset i cry myself to sleep at night. Because i dont have a boyfriend. Rediculious right? I know! I havent had a boyfriend for a year! (I had one for like 4 days but i dont count it because well thats a different story) I feel like im not good enough not pretty enough. But the thing is is that im so ungrateful its not like i havent had guys ask me out. I just wont date them. Wanna know why? Because a boy i use to love.. Yep thats why. I like someone knew now. But i never talk to him. Im so pathic. I pray for God to bring me someone and when he does i wont give him a chance. Because my standards are so high. Wanna know why? Because if a guy does something embarrsing i wont like him you know how girls think its cute, I dont i always find some reason to not go out with him or break up with him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I dont understand im so lonely but i wont give anyone a chance and when i do i ruin it because something they did. I just dont understand. I just dont know what wrong with me...
Just Need to Vent, Read/Comment/Fav Whatever youd like just please dont judge.

I have a pretty good life great family great friends I have God on my side. I use to have a pretty bad life when i was doing bad things but im better now. But you know why im so depressed? So upset i cry myself to sleep at night. Because i dont have a boyfriend. Rediculious right? I know! I havent had a boyfriend for a year! (I had one for like 4 days but i dont count it because well thats a different story) I feel like im not good enough not pretty enough. But the thing is is that im so ungrateful its not like i havent had guys ask me out. I just wont date them. Wanna know why? Because a boy i use to love.. Yep thats why. I like someone knew now. But i never talk to him. Im so pathic. I pray for God to bring me someone and when he does i wont give him a chance. Because my standards are so high. Wanna know why? Because if a guy does something embarrsing i wont like him you know how girls think its cute, I dont i always find some reason to not go out with him or break up with him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I dont understand im so lonely but i wont give anyone a chance and when i do i ruin it because something they did. I just dont understand. I just dont know what wrong with me...
How can you flirt with a guy without them thinking your being werid I want him to start to like me what do i do?

PLEASE READ AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. I NEED ADVICE. PLEASE ITS LONG BUT EXPLAINS AT THE END

My Bestfriend in 7-8th grade was Eston William Nelson the second (dont know how to do that on a computer) We was unsepreable in school. He was there for me and i was there for him. One day in 8th grade we had a book fair he told me hed buy me any book so i found some pretty intersting books. Burned Crank & Impulse i couldnt decide which one i wanted so Eston helped me and we decided on Impulse by Ellen Hopkins(best writer ever) i have every book of hers now and i have read all but Perfect (in the middle of) Triangles (actually dont have that either) anyway Eston passed away November 16, 2011. But not a peaceful way. He hurt himself.. Over bullying. & if anyone has ever read Ellen Hopkins book you know that people pass away in them but not by hurting themself except in Impulse the book ESTON gave me. Conner shot himself to (conner didnt die) & just in case you havent read the book im not giving away the ending. But was that a sign from god for me not to drift away(actually wasnt are faults didnt have classes together & his gf didnt really like me) What if i could have been there? I cant stop thinking about it. I thought about it yesterday. & reliezed it cant be a ca wen sa dince. (sounded it out since i cant spell that) He didnt even tell me goodbye...

Im hungary for love but im not starving
I really wanna loose weight, Does anyone know any good ways to loose weight safely? Please comment if you do and if you say watch what you eat then what should i eat? Please help!

I miss you so Much,
Eston.
Why'd you have to do this.
R.I.P

 

R.I.P Eston Nelson!
You may not know him But he was my bestfriend in 7th&8th grade. We grew apart in highschool. Today he took his life. You wanna know why? Because of BULLYING, There was no reason for him to get bullied. He was a nice young caring man the meanst thing he could probably do is poke you. He was nice and giving. Since we grew apart we talked once after the message that tore us apart. 7th&8th grade you wouldnt BELIEVE how close we were. But my bestfriend took his life! Bullying should STOP what if that was your BESTFRIEND. Dont wait til it already happened like my school is doing. Stop it now make a difference, I know im going to start because i just lost my friend and im not gonna wait til i lose another one its opened my eyes. If there are any friends you are fighting with, Make up now before its to late!
R.I.P Eston Nelson!

I just wish for a Miracle<3