"Ow, oww," Ryan yells as he winks
at me, "I'm single now, come at me,
rawrrr."
I burst out laughing and he clicks the play button on
my iTunes account. The Taylor Swift song starts playing and
he grabs my hand to pull me up. We start dancing, close,
and he twirls me around. I laugh as I close my eyes and
spin. He lets go and catches me right before I hit the
ground.
"Woah," I slip out. Ryan smiles and pulls
me close again, doesn't he know he's driving me
crazy? I can barely breathe right now and my heart is
beating so fast.
"I love you, Ryder," he says hesitantly as he
bites his lip. I back up from him so quickly that I bump
into a chair.
"What?" I almost scream at him.
Ryan looks worried, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't
have said that." My phone vibrates and I can barely
stand up to grab it.
"I-uh-well I love you, too," I stammer out. His
face lights up and his eyes twinkle with a million
questions.
"Really? I thought Chase..," Ryan says and tries
to avoid eye act.
"I don't know, I can't be here. I'm
sorry," I yell out as I grab my stuff from his room
and start walking outside.
"RYDER, wait," I hear him scream behind me which
somehow pushed me to run away faster. It starts raining
right before the entrance into the woods, forget. I
collapse under a tree and cry. What the hell is happening?
I love Chase now, not Ryan. I'm done with Ryan, we
already established that we're just friends last year.
Right? He's joking, I'm being
punk'd. This is not how I dreamed that
moment would happen, for him to tell me that he loves me
and me just stand there speechless. What is wrong with me?
I need to text him, and Chase, and my mom. I frantically
search my bag, it's not here. Oh my god, no way.
forget. I must have left it at Ryan's house. I've
been sitting here for at least 10 minutes, I must look like
stuff. I'm starving, ugh do I have food? I hear
footsteps coming and I jump up. "Who's
there?"
"Ryder," someone calls my name. Ryan. He comes
from behind a tree and walks up to me."Here," he
says emotionless. I grab my phone from his hand and our
hands brush, his hand jumps back as if I shocked him.
"Are you okay?" I ask. He nods, "I'm
really sorry," he mutters and turns to leave. I grab
his hand and move my body next to his. "Don't
be," I whisper. Ryan moves his face toward mine in
hesitation and touches the back of my head. I put my hand
on the back of his head, too, and push it. His lips hit me
like an electric shock that tingles through me. I back up,
"You don't know how long I've wanted you to do
that." He smiles nervously and kisses me again,
harder. We stop because my phone starts vibrating. I check
it, awkwardly, as he watches me. 2 new messages, 1 missed
call. Chase. I look at Ryan and trust my instinct. "I
need to leave," I announce as I start walking out of
the woods toward a street. He yells after me but all I can
hear is the thunder and rain. Tears pour down my face, what
am I doing?
ten faves to know if I should keep going
:x
"had a lot of moments that
didn't last forever, now you in
the corner tryna put it together. how to
love."