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It's sad when you  have bad
chest pains  from  breathing
and crying so hard.       </3

The boy I love♥
I could talk about him forever. I could tell you that his favorite sweatshirt is blue and striped. If it smelled like him in a room, I could tell you who it was. He actually cares about people and has the capability of making anyone fall for him. He's really funny, but takes everything to heart. He made me feel on top of the world. Don't ask me how many times I've cried over him, because I won't tell you the truth. I might say that he's never made me feel bad. I might say that I'm happy for him and his new girlfriend, but really, I couldn't wish that was me more. I'm happy that he's happy, even though whenever someone says his name I could cry. Don't ask me about him, because I'll say that I don't think about it anymore. I'll say a lot of things that I don't mean. But boy, when I said that I loved you, that was real. If you meant it or not, I don't know. But considering it's been more than two months and I'm still crying almost every night over you, I know I'm not over you quite yet. In reality, I'm glad I'm not. Because I have hope, and I love you too much to let you go. I know that I'll never be able to have someone else without comparing them to you. When I see you, don't be surprised if I look sad or if I have a tear rolling down my cheek. Also, don't feel bad for me. Because I just want you to be happy and if that includes getting over me, I'm ok with that. I'm sorry that I can't be friends with you, it's just that if I were to talk to you, I would probably start crying. I know you think it's because I'm stuck up, but if I could talk to you, I would. I hope you're happy and that you have a great year.