Today,
I was
called
fat.
And
even though I've heard that word
being my
label ever
since the
age of four, it still hurts, no matter what.
But this time, it was different.
It was by someone who didn't even know my
name.
Kids were sick to me back then, and now, as a
teenager, it
hurt even more.
I've tried so many things to stop it.
When I was in the third grade, I had begun to
starve myself.
My friends had begged me to eat, but I
refused.
I've secretly made myself gag, or throw up,
&no matter how disgusting I know that is
now,
I did it, and I can't redo what I have
done.
Yes, I still feel fat.
No, I don't starve myself anymore like I
did; I'm better now.
But, I still hold in those tears when someone tells me that
I am.
I don't know what's worse;
Being called it on a daily basis, or trying not to say
anything back,
because I obviously can't say that I'm
not.
I can't help it that I'm not perfect.
God made me so that I could let others know that you may
not
be perfect, buut you can be the strongest person out there,
just like me. I'm proud to be the person I am,
whether I'm 'fat' or not. At least I have a
heart,
so for those of you that are thinking that you're
'fat',
you're just as beautiful as anyone else. I'm going to
live life with my head held high.
I'm sorry I've let you down, society.
♥
To
those of you who read this, I love you.
I just had to get this off my chest- since that is what Witty is
for.
I want no hate; I get that enough from people to my face.
Talking to me is one thing; saying nasty things is
another.