xxdancin4evaxx

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SUMMER 2010,

I need you now more than [[ever]]. In the midst of all of this cold winter weather, I need your warm sunshine to [[kiss]] my hair and skin. In the middle of all this pointless [[drama]], I need the [[carefree]] attitudes you bring. When all these friendships are slowly [[fading]] away, I need your [[memories]] to bring us back together. This has been the hardest winter for me ever, so please do me a favor and hurry your [[amazing]] self up and save me from all this crap.





 

And it's the kind of relationship where


One day we're hitting each other, saying i hate you, rolling our eyes, insulting each other, making each other jealous on purpose, and giving death stares from across the room.

Then the next day we're hugging each other, saying i love you, looking into each other's eyes, complimenting each other, making each other feel wanted, and mouthing i love you across the room.

And honestly, I love every minute of every day spent with you, no matter what kind of day it is.

<3

-Your face lighting up whenever you see me
-You texting me first every day
-Not ignoring me when she's around
-Staring at me during class
-Telling me everything
-Flirting in subtle ways
-Stopping at my locker
-Telling my best friend all about me
-Talking to me every chance you get


Maybe things are finally going back to normal.



                    

 

"What's wrong?"

Oh, nothing.  I'm just tired.


**well, let's see: I believed every damn word he said to me. I believed  the I will always love you, no girl could ever take me away from you, I would never do anything to harm you, you're the only girl I care about. And he lied to me. Every one of those things was a lie. Now, he DID leave me. And yes, he left me for that one girl. The one that I knew he had a thing for all along, even if he said he didn't. We've had too many fights to count, and he is honestly one of the biggest jerks I have ever met. I now realize that he never even cared about me. Now, we don't even talk. He tries to talk to me sometimes, but it just hurts too much to talk back. And it upsets me that we don't talk but I have to make it seem like I don't care even though I do. I really miss the old him. He has become a completely different person lately that I don't even recognize anymore. And that is just plain sad right there. Every time I see him with her, it literally puts me in pain. Then, when I have a split second where I don't think about him, he comes racing back right through my mind and the fact that the amazing thing we had is now gone, hits me harder than ever before. I loved this boy so much, and no matter how much I try to convince myself that I don't, I still do. I try and try to get over him and get him out my heart and head, but he keeps finding his way back, and I'm not sure if I will ever be able to truly get over him.**

 
So there you have it, that's what's wrong.
But i would rather dithan admit
that to anyone who asks me "what's wrong?" 

 





























 


Even though what we had is now gone,
I still catch you staring at me during class.
So I can't help but wonder:

Is he missing what we had?
Is he doubting his choice?
Is he finally realizing the decision he made was wrong?
Is he thinking of a memory of me and him?
Does he miss seeing me smile at him?
Does he miss me talking to him?
Does he want me back?

But then I snap back to reality and I realize


No. Even if he did, I shouldn't want him back anyways.
What he did to me and put me through was horrible, and
I deserve someone a lot better.

But yet, I can't help wonder. . . .

 

And boy,

guess who doesn't even



give a damn anymore

</3
And yes, I remember:

the random i love you's thrown into the conversation,

when that beautiful smile would be directed at me,

when you would mouth "i love you" from across the room not caring who saw you,

how whenever I was talking to another guy, you would tell me I was all yours,

when you would tickle me until we were both crying of laughter,

the times when you would play with my hair,

how you would stop at my locker whenever you could and rub your feet against mine,

how you would text me every day after school with a "hey baby=]"

when you would hold my hand, and rub your thumb against it,

how you would always rub my leg,

and those amazing "goodnight, i love you=]"s


But now, everything has changed:


the words "i love you" are never spoken to me,
 
that beautiful smile to me is gone,

now you mouth "i hate you" from across the room,

now you could care less when I talk to another guy,

we never laugh together

now you play with her hair,

now you never think twice of stopping at my locker,

these days we don't text at all,

holding hands never happens anymore,

you're no longer rubbing my leg,

with no goodnight or i love you from you, i cry myself to sleep.


I miss the days when me and you were amazing.</3







 
And it kills me when i think
of all those amazing memories me and him had<3
are now a thing of the past because
he left me for her.

The girl who is always putting him down,
flirting with other guys,
making up stories to him,
lying to him.

The girl who will never love him
like i used to.
No, like i still do. </3