xxibeboo2xx

I'm tired;
i'm tired of this little cat and mouse game we play constantly.
i always lose anyways.
but thats not the problem.
the problem is that i'm tired of being your doormat.
you treat me like dirt and i let you.
i dont know what was going through my mind when i let you treat me so poorly. maybe it was the fact that i thought you truly loved me or for a second thought that you actually cared for me. when in reality, you don't. and i think youve made that very clear now. This little "game" of yours has been going on for two years. i have no clue why i didnt stop you sooner. I just can't believe that you played me like this when you know i had true and strong feelings for you. How could you be so... heartless? to sit there laughing, mocking, and messing with me while i loved you with every piece of my heart. but the funny thing is, is that i actually fell for it. i fell hard for you and your stupid little tricks. i'm done. so frigging done with you and all your problems. i was actually there for you when all of your other friends left you. i stayed because i oved you and i actually cared. but obviously you didn't. and you never will. this is the exact reason why i feel like i cant trust anyone ever again. ive been hurt alot. but this drew the last straw. because of you i cant open up to anyone ever again. and now youre sitting around with your new girlfriend prancing and showing her off like shes the only one in the world. but you know what? i'm still happy for you. and i will continue to support you in all that you do because i still love you. i don't know how, after all youve put me through, but i think i will always still love you.                                                                    
sorry guise. i know its probably realy confusing but this is all the words i want to say to my ex boyfriend, but i dont have enough courage to say them aloud. im literally in tears right now reminscing on all the good times we used to have and i know you guys probably dont care but i just needed somewhere or someone to vent to.
#venting