xxizzyxbearx3xx

I always told people..
  that I don't do feelings or relationships.
I never told them how you are the exception.
You're not anymore, and that is scary
How you fall out of love.
How it took so long.
How it hurt, but at the same time, didn't.
And I watch people.
I wonder who they love, who they are living for.
I wonder how different they act around that person.
If they get soft and shy.
If they get happy and excited.
I wonder how their life will turn out.
Love is amazing,
but it is pain.
Some people are not strong enough for love.
Some people do not survive.
I drowned.
By the time someone discovers my body,
I will have been dead for awhile now.

 

What if the one who got away, came back?
 

Everybody leaves 
 my life at the worst times.

You know something 
 down the line in your past went
wrong when faking a smile the
moment you walk in the school doors
becomes a habit you can't snap out of.

I keep asking myself "why?" 
but then I simply remind myself it
was my fault for never being good
enough as to why you cheated.
I'm sorry.