xxventherexx

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hey witty(:
if you need somewhere to vent, you could do it here.
please don't change the format or anything, but you could write something in the box to the right if you want.
SO ANYWAY
stay strong, please don't do anything you will forget.
i love you <3


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Quotes by xxventherexx

i know what you think of me.
i'm happy, right? i'm smart, i hang out with the "popular crowd", i'm pretty, i'm sweet, people like me, i have lots of friends, i'm rich, i have a nice house, nice clothes, perfect body, my siblings are perfect, i have no care in the world. no problems. just happiness.


if you saw me now, would you think differetly?

in sweat pants and a sweatshirt that are 100x too big?
my hair in a bun?
did you know i never wear make up?
i spent my saturday night alone.
actually, my whole saturday alone.where are my beautiful friends?
good question.
i watched movies all day.
and i ate ice cream.
did you know i threw it up?
maybe that's how my body's so perfect.
did you know i made my first scar in my hip tonight?
did you know i cry alot?
did you know i don't know how to deal with my emotions?
do you realize what happens when i get frusturated?
did you know i can't handle myself?
do you understand how insecure i am?
how anxious and nervous i always am?
how i'm paranoid my future will be a fail?
that i'm developing fears over everything?
that i burst into tears for no reason?
no. i bet you didn't know any of that.


what do you think of me now?
exactly. that's why i hide it.

 
okay so listen to me the first time
i don't want moral support or any of that
but if anyone here is/was belimic (or however you spell it)
or has ever made their self puke or has any like knowledge of it,
i just wanna know how you did it.
like do you just stick your fingers down your throat........?
please i won't make this a habit i just feel disguisting. 
please please please please
it doesn't make you a bad person or anything,
i feel sick anyway, i just need to get it over with so i could go to bed
i always feel like i need to be careful around my friends...
like at any moment they are gonna ditch me because of my littlest mistake.
i'm so done that it hurts.

i feel like i can't open up to
anyone... not even my bestfriends

i feel so ugly compared to all my beautiful and popular friends.
its driving me crazy..