Okay so I'm a very insecure person.
And I'm insecure about almost every part of my body.
I wear clothes that cover as much as my body as
possible.
I cut my hair so that it covered up my face but I could still
see.
I started wearing hats a lot because I'm insecure about my
hair.
And now I'm even becoming insecure with my neck.
My neck.
It's outrageous.
Anyways.
So I'm also very insecure about my smile.
My teeth are weird, my smile looks stupid.
I just don't smile anymore because of it.
So the other day in school my gym teacher and I had a
conversation.
Teacher: Heidi, why are you mad at me?
Me: What are you talking
about?
Teacher: You look so angry
so I'm wondering what I did wrong.
Me: I have no reason to be
angry at you.
Teacher: So you aren't
mad at me?
Me: No.
Teacher: So why do you look
mad?
Me: Apparently I naturally
look angry.
Teacher: Can I see you smile?
Me: No.
Teacher: Fine then Spock.
Me: Spock?
Teacher: Because you
won't smile. I'm going to call you Spock from now on.
And then my teacher walked away from me.
So then today in gym class I had to go to the bathroom due
to...girl issues... and we weren't doing anything in gym so I
went to the teacher.
Me: Can I go to the bathroom?
Teacher: Will you smile to
me?
Then I stared at him
in the eyes.
Me: No.
Teacher: Well I guess you
aren't going to the bathroom.
And then he walked away.
It just pïsses me off so much because he doesn't know
why I refuse to smile.
Maybe I have a jaw problem and it hurts to smile.
Maybe someone close to me just died an hour ago and I'm
devistated.
Or maybe I'm extremely insecure about my smile and
wouldn't want to further humiliate myself.
And now it's like I'm being punished for it.