yourbeutiful__trustme

For everyone who is suicidal. I was too. Untill I got a text from my best friend. She was throwing up so much she was scared she was about to throw up blood. After goin the doctor she was told if she went any later she mightve died or had to go to the hospital. In that moment I realized that life is a HUGE gift and while you might be having suicidal thoughts its not worth it. I was scared, terrifed even that i would lose her.

Trust me. Life is a gift and you were given it for a reason. If one person read this and it changed their thoughts then thats all I want. I was able to help my friend who was suicidal and I hope I can help you too.

Guys this is it... I have to say thanks. Those who listened to me thank you sooo much. I listened to all of you and I took what you said to heart. I now have a therapist and I'm on my way. I want to let go of Witty for a while cause I need to sort some things out. I still love you guys and I  might come on once a month till I'm no longer depressed. I just wanna say thank you because I was able to push through it all till I stood up and said I need help because of you guys. You all helped me see I'm not alone. I no longer think I'm useless and nothing, but the road to happiness is a long one. So thank you beacuse of you guys I made it this far with a scar. Let's hope my therapist can get me the rest of the way. Love you guys. I wont forget who helped me along this long turning road. We can all find the exit. I promise.

I screwed up.... and there isnt a way to fix it.

In band I was messing around with one of my guy friends and he picked up my legs to move them off the chair. My leg started to tingle from where his hand was and he pulled away like he felt it too. I've never seen him as anything. Never even thought he was cute or hot or however you want to put it. I don't know what to make of this and i just need help.. WHAT IS GOING ON.

I'm worried i used to be hungry allot no matter what but suddenly I'm forcing myself to eat its rare I'm hungry anymore I am forcing myself to eat because I take dance and ski and in fall play soccer. It's to the point if i don't force myself to eat I'll start losing allot of weight I really am eating to keep some weight. Should I be worried??

whoever keeps on reporting lollipopx3's stories can you stop there isnt anything bad even in them

Will things get better?

My friend asked me this the other day. Normaly I say yes, but instead I looked down at my feet and lowered my vocie. In the quietest vocie i could manage knwoing she would still here me I said "I honestly dont know anymore." My throat then started to close up. My breathing got shrap and unsteady. She pulled me into her and gave me a hug. She told me these words

"Babe, I promise you things won't be hard much longer. Just trust me. It'll be hard. It always is but I'll be right by your side the whole time. Don't forget when you start to fall I'll be there to catch you. I wont let you shatter again."


You see I realized it's true. I realized my "Mummy" (I'm her babe shes my mum) is right it will get better. For all of us.

Will things get better?

My friend asked me this the other day. Normaly I say yes, but instead I looked down at my feet and lowered my vocie. In the quietest vocie i could manage knwoing she would still here me I said "I honestly dont know anymore." My throat then started to close up. My breathing got shrap and unsteady. She pulled me into her and gave me a hug. She told me these words

"Babe, I promise you things won't be hard much longer. Just trust me. It'll be hard. It always is but I'll be right by your side the whole time. Don't forget when you start to fall I'll be there to catch you. I wont let you shatter again."


You see I realized it's true. I realized my "Mummy" (I'm her babe shes my mum) is right it will get better. For all of us.

Is it easy? 
Will you be hapy without me 
Will i become nothign again
Will i be the one you threw away
Even after you promised
I sound heart broken 
I sound like a guys took my heart and crushed it
Thats almost right
Except it wasna guy
It was a my bestfriend
WAS 
I trusted her 
I did
Now she thinks of me as noithing
So its almost the new year
And this time
I'm starting over
I'm leaving you in the past
So have fun
Distorying the old me
While the new better me
Is climbing above your head


Have fun