yourdirtylittlesecrets

K so this account was just hacked.
Go look at the profile.

Lawls.

There was this guy, lets just call him Josh. At the end of last year I fell in love with him, i had liked him all semester. For the first part of the summer, we talked and stuff still and i fell more in love with him, but he didn't know. Then he ignored me for the rest of the summer and we never talked again until maybe around November. Some stuff happened around then but not like kissing, or liking again. Oh and btw i stopped loving him in August. But after i stopped loving him, i felt like nothing. i didn't feel emotion i guess. my dopamine is low, is what i think. Dopamine is the hormone in you that produces emotion, and yes, it can decrease. But im too scared to ask my mom for medicine for it:P Anyway, we were texting last night, and he told me that he loved me and hes loved me since December. I..i dont know what to do. he told me he wanted to talk about it in person alone but my friends hate him for what happened in the summer, but i dont know what to do. he told me he loved me..and i know how it feels to love someone and have them not love you back..he was crying last night too..i never thought that he would cry, ever. i loved him so much and now i have no feelings for him at all. He apologized a lot for "being a dick before and i wouldnt blame you if you never forgive me but i wont give up on you-" (lets just call me Mary) "-Mary, I LOVE YOU. 
:P

I need help.
I've started cutting.
I didn't really cut that deep. I just cut a lot.
There's scars everywhere. It's hard to hide them.
I'm going on vacation next week. I have no idea whether my scars will heal by then. People might see them.
I'm scared. I'm depressed. I'm just...I'm falling apart.
I don't know what to do. I can't tell anyone. I'm..I'm only 12. My friends wouldn't understand. Neither would my parents.
I don't know what to do.
I need help.

I don't know what to do.
I love my boyfriend to death.
A lot of my friends say I can do better.
My ex still likes me, he's a player and currently has another girlfriend.
He's a constant flirt... worst part I flirt back.
I don't know what to do anymore..

I really hate most people, especially my same gender.
It's just so annoying, you really think if somebody texts you first you're in love? This whole texting thing is just annoying to me because it really doesn't seem real. another thing, stop blaming society for every damn thing, barely any of you are fat either. I see this everywhere, and whenever somebody posts cutting or anorexic posts I go to their profile. I see a skinny as hell kid who coats their page with a bunch of smiley faces. I know this doesn't apply to everybody who does this, so don't get all butthurt. I guess i'm just tired of how stereotypical girls are, even on here.

My problem is that I eat.
I eat and eat and eat. I try to exercise, but honestly, I just don't have the time.
I can't starve myself. I don't know how to make myself throw up. I'm just stuck. I'm stuck being fat.

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I love my boyfriend to death.
He claims he loves me too.
He flirts constantly with my best friend.. She flirts back.
I don't know what to do.