zebraspotz4

Status: Holding on by letting go<3
Joined: March 26, 2012
Last Seen: 9 years
user id: 286893
Location: California
Gender: F


Veronica | 14 | Recovering

This quote/photo above pretty much describes me in a nutshell. Im terrible at these "about me" things but honestly, if you want to know more about me just ask.

I used to cut, purge, and starve myself. It got to the point where i was almost anorexic. In October (on my birthday) i made a quote so i would stop cutting (1 fav-1 day) Im so proud to say its been almost 4 months. Its been harder than anything ive ever done before, but im getting by. I am recovering.

Please please please come to me if you need anything. Im always willing to help. I will stay up all night with you and not stop until you have the help you need. When i was going through hell, there was no one there for me except Witty. Im determinded to never let that happen to anyone else.

Ok i think thats pretty much it...dont forget to click that follow button before you go! Oh and if you've read this far i have one last piece of advice for you: cats solve everything. well...im not sure if thats true...but i love cats. Meow. 

"Sometimes people are beautiful, not in looks, not in what they say, just in what they are."
-Markus Zusak

Quotes by zebraspotz4

her body was nothing more

than a galaxy of stars, a futile attempt at bleeding the filth out and pulling 

something more beautiful out of herself, so that people wouldn't see her as a
freak anymore, but something more, something better
What a tragic mistake, 
a catastrophic flaw,
that there are not scars
for joy.
The pain, my love,
the pain leaves its marks:
the days it was too much
or we too little,
the times we fell too far
and rose too slow.
I am littered with reminders
of harder days gone by,
but scars of joy,
i find not on this flesh,
aging as it is.
Inside maybe, perhaps
they live there,
hidden and buried and
burning bright.
Bright beneath the remnants
of sorrow on the surface.

-Tyler Knott Gregson-
a certain darkness is needed to see the stars

you could be

happy, i hope you are. You made me 

happier than i'd been
by far.

and i find it kinda funny

i find it kinda sad. The dreams in which im dying are the best ive ever had.

i find it hard to tell you, i find it hard to take. when people run in cirlces its a very,
very mad world.

one month, one day

it has been a little over a month since ive cut myself

im honestly so happy right now and so greatful and i think i can actually begin to see a turning point in my life
and i have all of you to thank

because sometimes

people do actually feel that way. sometimes your life feels like it's

caving in on you. sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. saying
"i don't want to exist" isn't saying "i want to go die". it's saying "i wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel". i don't think there's anything wrong with that.
and if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

say everything you've

always wanted. Be not afraid of who you really are, cause

In the end we have eachother, and thats at least one thing worth
living for. And i would give the world to you.

Im crying right now.
Literally, im bawling my eyes out...and not because im sad, but because

Im the happiest person alive. Right after i made my last quote on my birthday, i was thinking about taking my life. Seriously. I thought "no one is going to like this" "they're all going to think that im not serious" "they probably just think im doing this for favs" But then i logged on this morning, and saw 466 notifications. 466 NOTIFICATIONS!! I've never even been CLOSE to that number. and now...im a top quote
So many of you cared, and i was so touched, i broke down and just cried (i still am right now) so if any of you are reading this right now, i cant even thank you enough right now. Whoever said you cant save a life is wrong: because you literally just saved mine.

Everyone wished me a happy birthday. They promised me that my 14th year would be the best one
and its going to be
because starting today, as of now, i have to go
one year and 2 days without harming myself.
This is going to be literally the hardest thing ive ever done
but im ready.

Today is my Birthday.

And this is NOT for favs. I just have to document that im doing this.

I decided today that im going to give myself a gift. A nice Birthday Present since i turn 14. Not new shoes, a purse, some makeup, no. This is even better. Im stopping. I quit. Im tired of living like this. Im tired of the pain i feel everyday. So im finally going to let myself go. Im going to free myself. Im finally ending this.
Starting today, for every fav i get on this quote, i will not:
cut myself
force myself to throw up
starve myself
call myself ugly, fat, stupid, etc
let the bullies get to me
allow myself to be treated like i am

im actually kind of scared, because i know this is going to be really hard. And thats the reason why im doing it for every fav, because seeing the support, seeing those hearts, i know im never going to go against my word if im promising it to you guys