Quotes added on Monday, June 21 2004

How can I tell if u mean what u say?

U say it so loud but u sound far away...
Maybe ive had just a glimpse of ur soul,
or was that ur shadow i saw on the wall?

nothing is ever perfect,

perfect is an illusion

and illusions are never
really there...

gloomy days and endless nights,
seeping in sadness of his delight.
a river ten times as wide as a lie,
filled with the blood of her every cry.

nail polish.lip gloss.

body spray. make up.

im trying to look
f l a w l e s s

and its all to
make u love me

everytime it rains
i fall to pieces
so many memories
the rain releases

a tingle in my nose
warns me of the tears to come.

and reminds me that i can still feel.

.x. sometimes i think about everything .x.
.x. the lies and the pain .x.

.x. and i realize how much .x.
.x. ur not worth it .x.

x/3 first real love=first real problem x/3

i dont think u understand
how hard it is to talk to u
as j u s t f r i e n d s . . .

if i could only see u now for about an hour
maybe just a minute just to ask
what has she got that i dont have?
is it her brown eyes?
i knowblueeyes get boring but,
ill wear dark glasses all the time...

tonight ill stand in the light
so u can count how many
tears fall from my eyes
this time ill be all right
my heart cant get any worse

sometimes i cant hear myself think
wth ur words echoing through my head
sometimes i have to wait til no one can see me,
the tears fall as soon as i crawl into bed.
ur the only one i think of
ur always on my mind.
nothing was there, but i saw it all.
i dont know how i could be so blind.

the sun shines through my window just right.
to bring back the memories of u and I.
and i hate it.

just leave me here
-alone-
just like u always do

i see u in my thoughts, my dreams, my fantasies.
when will u ever care about me?
when will this pain end?

as long as we're being honest
and pointing out our imperfections...
i guess its the righttime to tell u
that i think urcompletely flawless.
but, keep going...

kiss me when u hold me.
hold me in ur arms.
i see ur perfect lips.
so good they tear me up.
and im so tempted to kiss u.
but ur new girlfriend probably wouldnt like that.

ur worth every tear i cried,
ur worth everything.
all u have to do is talk to me
and my smile wont go away.
no matter how hard i try.
thats how i know ur worth it.
ur worth every tear ill cry.

my tears have burnt my eyes.
and i cant see anything anymore.
nothing makes me happy.
nothing...

all the times u told me u loved me,
(*all the times u l i e d . . .*)

mysteries darkened their silent spoken love
but nothing was more beautiful than the darkness of his soul.

u just dont get it
not a word that i say
so i'll show u what i mean
see these tears? my eyes are swollen,
and this is what u mean to me...

i love u more than anything
i hate u more every day
i wish u never wouldve said a thing
but just ignore everything i say.
it doesnt matter to u anyway,
and im sure ill regret it all someday.

i wonder if i was just there to be there,
or did u really want it like that?

dont u know my tears will burn the pillow
set this place on fire
cuz im tired of ur lies
all i needed was a simple'hello'

there areso many things imnot sureof in life
but with all certainty at this very minute,
all i know is that i miss him

i used to smile when i told people u weremine
now i cant even smile and say ur name at the same time

what if someone told u
that u could take back
any mistake in ur life
mine would be believing
that u ever cared about me