Quotes added on Friday, January 14 2005

some times...there are no second chances..there's onli here, now and today..

DeDiCaTeD

Perry L Bupp
RIP 1/13/05

lately i feel so used and abused
people treat me like im one big joke
people use me and make fun of me every day
like my life isnt hard enough as it is
no..you gotta go getting in you share
its like im a baseball everyone gets a hit
so if you havent had your turn yet..go ahead
join the crowd..but jus wanna let you know
keep thinkin im one big joke..its gonna get to me
and some day im gonna give up this fight of bein strong
n everything is gonna be COMPLETELY wrong..so when that time comes just so you know..its all because you thought i wus one big joke





my feelings tonite sucked - taymill

~SCARED~

I heard something today and it scared me to death
It was about one of my best friends...
She has been having problems lately
with guys, family, school, basically with life

Things are not going her way
And she's found a way to deal
most would say thats good,
she can channel her anger and fear

But you don't know what i know,
and what i know is not good...
What i know is a secret
that she would rather i keep
but now i'm the one losing sleep

up at night,
sick with fright
about what she may do next to take away the pain...

it's not drugs or liquer
nope, thats not for her
Shes found a way that she can hide,
something only she knows, deep inside

I wonder how i missed it
all the scars on her arms
from anything sharp she could find
"doesnt it hurt?" is all i can say
she says "not really" while looking away
I dont know what to do
all i can think now to say is i love you
i tell her this before i leave
with tears in my eyes, i just cant believe
that my strong best friend has resorted to this

i stop to think how much ill miss her if she decides
she cant take anymore
and that she needs to shut the door
on her life that has made so many better
and i know you're probobly crying as you read this letter
that i am writing to anyone who knows how to help
because im still really scared

i wrote this the day i found out a good friend of mine had been cutting for almost a year...it hurts to see what you missed ...it almost makes you feel guilty for not realizing..anyways, take it if you want, tho its not that good!!! ; )

Beneath the rafters
The angels sing
S p i n n i n g violence and
Playing with my heart

Close your eyes
You’re b e a u t i f u l
When your sleeping
Tonight *
May all your dreams come true

´ don`t trust Anyone.. rely on yourself
` live life f0r y0urself cuz you c a m e
´ in this world _a L o N e_ and yOu'Re
` .l.e.a.V.i.n.g. bY yOurSeLf . . *

[[aLwAyS lIsTeN tO yOuR {{heart}}, cuZ eVen tHoUgH iTs oN yOur *LeFt*, ItS AlWaYs ~r*I*g*H*t]]

and i`ll sit here & take it all
in is there a n y t h i n g
else youu wanted to tell me ?
because m y h e a r t <3 is all
yours . go ahead . s h a t t e r i t

so swallow the knife
carve the way for your pride
now our hands are tied
the problems lie within
so we pray for night
to start over again

take a bOw // hear the applause?
my <3 iS brOken___and *yOuRe*
the cause ` --» i played your
game `* and it [lOoks] like you`ve
wOn _______ cOngradulations!*
`---» - I hOpE yOu had f u n