Quotes added on Tuesday, April 12 2005

DoNt HaTe ThA PlAyA
HaTe ThA GaMe...

ph0ne + bed <3
lev it 4 the a/m 0r cal!!
much l0ve x0ox [name here]

I'm Sorry


I made a mistake
I live it today
It had become a habit
But does that make it OK?

To say i couldn't stop
An addiction at its worst
I know crossed the line
I must think first

The rush that i got
What no one else saw
Made me blind to the fact
That i was breaking the law

A law to protect
To serve right from wrong
Part of the catholic religion
something Ive known for so long

Not to mention all the lies
The unbelievable amount
Just to hide my secret
The number i cant count

I'm not a bad person
My actions were wrong
So please do not tell me
Societies not where i belong

Because no one is perfect
And mistakes are allowed
Though I'm not saying
my actions make me proud

I just thank God its over
All the lies and guilt
Todays starts a new day
With new trust to be built

WHO WILL CRY?


If tonight I die,

Who will cry?

Strangers with their feigned interest,

While those I love have turned away.

And if my best isn't good enough,

What more can I give?

Go ahead--walk away.

Just leave me here alone.

And if tonight I die,

Who will cry?

All my strength is drained,

With nothing left to give.

Drowning in the depths of sorrow,

No tears left to cry.

A silent voice and distant eyes

That no one hears or sees.

And if tonight I die,

Who will cry?

I Am


I am a worthwhile person.
I am entitled to be who I am.
If you can't accept me as I am,
Then you are not worthy
To be a part of my life
To ignore or reject who I am
Is your loss.
I deserve uncompromised devotion.
Anything less is unacceptable.
If you can't view me
As the treasure, the prize
That I am,
Then forget it--
I am worth more than that.
There will be others
Who will recognize
The worthiness of who I am.
I am who I am
And I am a worthwhile person.

Am I Alone?



I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.

Warped & Twisted


Harsh words & violent blows
Hidden secrets nobody knows
Eyes are open, hands are fisted
Deep inside I'm warped & twisted
So many tricks & so many lies
Too many whens & too many whys
Nobody's special, nobody's gifted
I'm just me, warped & twisted
Sleeping awake & choking on a dream
Listening loudly to a silent scream
Call my mind, the number's unlisted
Lost in someone so warped & twisted
On my knees, alive but dead
Look at the invisible blood I've bled
I'm not gone, my mind has drifted
Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted
Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow
Today's just yesterday's tomorrow
The sun died out, the ashes sifted
I'm still here, warped & twisted

Confessions of a Cutter


Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin

Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I

sometime wanna be your lover`
sometime wanna be your friend
sometime wanna hug ya, hold hands,
slow dance while the record spins
opened up your heart 'cause you said
I made you feel so c o m f o r t a b l e

When it`s late at niqht & the stars are briqht `
I thank & pray with all my miqht * While I am
Lookinq up at the stars above ; because I am
The happiest girl in the world now that we »
:¨`·´¨: '- - - - -» fElL :¨`·´¨:
`·.·xO iN - - - -» lOvE `·.·xO