Quotes added on Friday, April 14 2006

...I'm getting to the point
And I feel like I do
Even more now
That I'm leavin'
Well I feel just like I do
When I'm with you.

-;-Teddy Geiger - Night Air -;-

Well I kissed the rain
I waited up
Your pourin dragons in my cup
Done tryin'
I can't cope with it
Or get over it
Yeah I'm over it
Well I'm tired of night air I can't breathe
You blew me off so easily
It's different between you and me
and I'm over it
Yeah get over it
I'm not the jealous type
who doesn't sleep at night
You've got your Karma
I know I've got mine
And all my tears will air dry
In just a little time...*

:Teddy Geiger: -Air Dry

Well there's one love in a lifetime
Two hearts of a kind.
These three reasons to be mine
And when five and six are through...
....Seven days without you.


♥ Teddy Geiger
Seven Days Without You ♥

Behind every girls smile
:
`·- - -» Is a guy that put it there <3

EDITS!
Behind every girls smile - Georgia size 18

we're not sarcastic
we're hilarious
we're not annoying
we're just cooler than you
we're not *witches
we just dont like you.
we're not obsessed
we're just best friends.
i love you all. forever <3

When I wake up I know exactly what to do that day, I'll put on a fake smile that even I don't recognize and say "I'm fine." when people ask if I'm okay. It's not like they will even notice that my smile isn't real and I'm sure that they won't be able to see the look in my eyes. However, as soon as I'm alone, I'll quickly make my way to my bed, I'll take a deep breath or two and turn on my radio, just incase I cry or make some other type of sound. I'll make my hand stop shaking, I'll roll up my sleeves. As soon as everything's ready I'll carefully watch as the cuts steadily spread up and down my arms. I'll check the scars and the old cuts as I watch the new ones bleed. Everyone thinks it hurts but I guess the reason I don't feel it is because when you feel pain enough you become numb to it. As I see the blood I'll start to feel okay again. I'll breathe again while I feel the pain fade away. Even though the cuts leave scars I know I was truly okay already and that if someone had asked me then I would have been telling the truth when I answered. My life WAS stress-free and the familiar pain wasn't there. Life was okay for a second. I watch the blood flow just like all the times before. I know that this friend won't leave me, not like all the other ones. As I slowly and carefully slip my safety pin into my pocket I realize this is the same process I'll repeat the next time my emotions get to hard to handle. Once again I'll feel ok when I know I'm in control again cause this is the one thing I control & I won't have to pretend & I won't have to lie because I'll be stress-free and my heartache will be gone even if just for a few minutes. The pain I've held back and let build up will be gone. Until then I put my hoodie back on and wrap my wrist so no one will see exactly what I did to me. After all, no one really cares what's behind the smile that they all know isn't real and no one dares ask about what's behind the fake look of happiness in my eyes

Don't tell me how I'm feeling, you do not know anymore
Every time, you turn away from me close the door
I mean so little to anyone, if you think I want your love
Covering my wounds with that solitary glove
If I died tomorrow would anybody cry
I seem to doubt it in my mind, I feel an uneasy high
Thinking about my knife, lying by my bed
Where I can carve away my arms escaping my head
I can do it because I feel so alone and cold
I am young yet I feel so weary and so old
Weak and easy to give in to this temptation
Another fake smile another deep creation
For attention I don't do it, because attention I don't need
All I want is to be understood, not judged on the way I bleed
Let me go, I know you wont care as I slide away from life
If you love me, let me die so I can escape my strife

Confessions of a Cutter

Silence:
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin

Red:
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction:
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish:
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares:
People are horrified
Don't understand why

Neither do I

Cuts and Scrapes
fake Fingernails and jewlery
friends and broken hearts
school and good times
yesterdays and tomorrows
fights and makes ups
hair and going out
shopping and giggles
hugs and first kisses
secrets and fun
brokens and mends
yeah to me
thats what i call best friends<33*

i absolutly hate the guy
that makes me want to cut my wrists
the one that makes me want to wake up in the hospital hearing "shes not gonna make it"
i hate the guy that makes my stomach turn
i hate the feeling
i hate the guy that shattered my heart
with a couple little words
i hate him
i really do
but at that same time
i would do anything to have him
and would never in a million years let him go
if i did
im in love with this guy
no matter what happens
or what he did or does to me<33*