Quotes added on Saturday, November 3 2007
When You Walk Away
You told me one day that you have to leave.
That you had to move on with your life.
That you couldn’t be trapped here forever.
I asked you why this is so sudden.
He said that he has been thinking this for awhile now.
Tears started to barrage down my face.
I wanted him to stay, but I needed to stay strong.
I was dying inside, I felt defeat.
He went to walk away, I didn’t want to seem weak.
So I pushed him down and ran away first. :]
You told me one day that you have to leave.
That you had to move on with your life.
That you couldn’t be trapped here forever.
I asked you why this is so sudden.
He said that he has been thinking this for awhile now.
Tears started to barrage down my face.
I wanted him to stay, but I needed to stay strong.
I was dying inside, I felt defeat.
He went to walk away, I didn’t want to seem weak.
So I pushed him down and ran away first. :]
Crying Harder
She missed herself.
When that one day came,
She let someone else control her.
An enemy in her eyes.
Envying her old self.
Breaking down into sudden despair.
Crying harder than ever before.
She wants so badly to remember how to be her.
She is screaming it.
“I want to be free!”
Never let “me” go, she always told herself.
She still cries, harder and harder.
I hate you is all she thought of her new self.
She didn’t believe that she was beautiful any more.
She wasn’t the beautiful girl that she was yesterday.
All because a boy said a few sweet words and she said,
“Yes.”
She missed herself.
When that one day came,
She let someone else control her.
An enemy in her eyes.
Envying her old self.
Breaking down into sudden despair.
Crying harder than ever before.
She wants so badly to remember how to be her.
She is screaming it.
“I want to be free!”
Never let “me” go, she always told herself.
She still cries, harder and harder.
I hate you is all she thought of her new self.
She didn’t believe that she was beautiful any more.
She wasn’t the beautiful girl that she was yesterday.
All because a boy said a few sweet words and she said,
“Yes.”
Tear Drop Falling
A tear drop fell to the dirt.
And she noticed that she was alone.
In the dark and the cold rain.
She felt like dying.
Missing all that she had before.
Happiness, freedom, Him.
She wanted it all back.
To see him wrapped around another girl.
Killed her.
She envied that one girl so much.
Only that girl.
She hated herself.
More tears ran down her face.
She sat on the middle swing in “there” park.
She always sat there with him.
He sat to the left of her.
Always.
Till she made a imprudent statement to him.
She lost him that day.
All his love.
She screamed in anguish.
“I hate this, crying alone in the pouring rain.”
She sat there.
Then he came into sight threw the rain.
He came crying and wrapped his arms around her.
“Me and that player are over.” Was all he said.
“I missed you Hun, don’t say anything like that again.
“Okay does this mean that we are back together and I can stop crying?”
“Yes.”
A tear drop fell to the dirt.
And she noticed that she was alone.
In the dark and the cold rain.
She felt like dying.
Missing all that she had before.
Happiness, freedom, Him.
She wanted it all back.
To see him wrapped around another girl.
Killed her.
She envied that one girl so much.
Only that girl.
She hated herself.
More tears ran down her face.
She sat on the middle swing in “there” park.
She always sat there with him.
He sat to the left of her.
Always.
Till she made a imprudent statement to him.
She lost him that day.
All his love.
She screamed in anguish.
“I hate this, crying alone in the pouring rain.”
She sat there.
Then he came into sight threw the rain.
He came crying and wrapped his arms around her.
“Me and that player are over.” Was all he said.
“I missed you Hun, don’t say anything like that again.
“Okay does this mean that we are back together and I can stop crying?”
“Yes.”
Yellow Flames
Yellow burning flames of my heart.
Burning hotter than ever.
I miss when it was cool like ice.
Because I want to be dead.
Like the ice.
I never wanted my heart to feel like this.
I am uncomfortable.
I never felt like this before.
I feel so scared.
I want to know why this one is different.
I don’t know why I feel the way I do.
I love it but I don’t want to….
I don’t know why.
I want to feel cold but I fell in love with this burning feeling.
I know what this burning feeling is!
It is because I love him.
And know I burn with yellow flames in my eyes.
Yes!
Yellow burning flames of my heart.
Burning hotter than ever.
I miss when it was cool like ice.
Because I want to be dead.
Like the ice.
I never wanted my heart to feel like this.
I am uncomfortable.
I never felt like this before.
I feel so scared.
I want to know why this one is different.
I don’t know why I feel the way I do.
I love it but I don’t want to….
I don’t know why.
I want to feel cold but I fell in love with this burning feeling.
I know what this burning feeling is!
It is because I love him.
And know I burn with yellow flames in my eyes.
Yes!
I Hate Everything About Me
I hate everything about me.
Only because I let you go.
I said “I have to go and I won’t be coming back.”
I left.
Without looking back.
I missed you.
I wanted to run back.
I wanted to sprint into your arms.
I wanted you.
In my life.
You are my life.
I love you.
And I hate myself for leaving in the first place.
I need you in my life.
I may not be able to breathe when I am around you but,
That is what I love about you.
That you can take my breath away just by hugging me.
Or walking by.
I want you back.
I want you like a little kid wants a pony.
I miss you.
And now when you are with Her, I have no chance.
I hate myself for letting her have you.
And watch her dangle your love in front of me.
I hate myself.
I hate Her.
I want you in my life.
I cry every night.
I dwell over every little kiss you give to Her.
I miss when you were kissing my lips.
I hate Her.
I hate me.
I hate everything, but you.
I love you.
I miss you.
I want you.
Without Her.
I hate everything about me.
Only because I let you go.
I said “I have to go and I won’t be coming back.”
I left.
Without looking back.
I missed you.
I wanted to run back.
I wanted to sprint into your arms.
I wanted you.
In my life.
You are my life.
I love you.
And I hate myself for leaving in the first place.
I need you in my life.
I may not be able to breathe when I am around you but,
That is what I love about you.
That you can take my breath away just by hugging me.
Or walking by.
I want you back.
I want you like a little kid wants a pony.
I miss you.
And now when you are with Her, I have no chance.
I hate myself for letting her have you.
And watch her dangle your love in front of me.
I hate myself.
I hate Her.
I want you in my life.
I cry every night.
I dwell over every little kiss you give to Her.
I miss when you were kissing my lips.
I hate Her.
I hate me.
I hate everything, but you.
I love you.
I miss you.
I want you.
Without Her.
Strawberry Kisses
I never thought that you would be able to do this to me.
With your warm touch to your strawberry kisses.
It can make me insane to be away from you.
I feel like crying…
I want to be with you for as long as possible…
Life gets in the way.
It would be easier to live on Mars!
Or would it…
I want to be with you but people make that impossible.
I hate that everything I do is controlled by another and another.
Everybody except me has a say in what I do.
I love that they would take the one thing that makes me happy….
You.
Your touch, your eyes, the way you think, the way you look at me even when I look away, the way you know what words to say at all the right moments, the way you love me for me, and your strawberry kisses.
You make me crazy… So much it is hard to breathe around you.
I never thought that I could feel this way…
Because of your strawberry kisses.
I never thought that you would be able to do this to me.
With your warm touch to your strawberry kisses.
It can make me insane to be away from you.
I feel like crying…
I want to be with you for as long as possible…
Life gets in the way.
It would be easier to live on Mars!
Or would it…
I want to be with you but people make that impossible.
I hate that everything I do is controlled by another and another.
Everybody except me has a say in what I do.
I love that they would take the one thing that makes me happy….
You.
Your touch, your eyes, the way you think, the way you look at me even when I look away, the way you know what words to say at all the right moments, the way you love me for me, and your strawberry kisses.
You make me crazy… So much it is hard to breathe around you.
I never thought that I could feel this way…
Because of your strawberry kisses.
Maybe One Day
Maybe one day we can be together..
But for now it is “no.”
I wish that life would clear…
The clouds fade.
The moon dance between each star.
The rain pour down for that special feeling you get…
Giggling and giggling as I walk farther away in embarrassment.
I am scared to see your eyes in the shine of the night.
I am scared to be frightened.
I don’t know why this is but it is.
I want to see your thoughts, your soul, and some what your eyes.
I want to know what I am to you.
Maybe one day we can be together and I will be able to figure this out.
And then we will both be comfortable.
Safe.
Kind of like we belong together.
And we do belong…
I see it in your eyes.
Maybe one day we can be together..
But for now it is “no.”
I wish that life would clear…
The clouds fade.
The moon dance between each star.
The rain pour down for that special feeling you get…
Giggling and giggling as I walk farther away in embarrassment.
I am scared to see your eyes in the shine of the night.
I am scared to be frightened.
I don’t know why this is but it is.
I want to see your thoughts, your soul, and some what your eyes.
I want to know what I am to you.
Maybe one day we can be together and I will be able to figure this out.
And then we will both be comfortable.
Safe.
Kind of like we belong together.
And we do belong…
I see it in your eyes.
Lightning
I see it burning in your eyes coming from behind me.
You flinch when you see my eyes.
Looking at you with the most curious look.
I want to know what you are thinking.
I need to know what you are thinking.
Because I don’t like to be blind.
It is very bothersome.
The light is flashing like strobe lights.
The lightning in your eyes makes me wonder.
The way you feel.
And you never feel safe enough to tell me.
I love to see it in your eyes because that is the night that I read your mind.
And yes I love you too and believe me I love you more.
I see it burning in your eyes coming from behind me.
You flinch when you see my eyes.
Looking at you with the most curious look.
I want to know what you are thinking.
I need to know what you are thinking.
Because I don’t like to be blind.
It is very bothersome.
The light is flashing like strobe lights.
The lightning in your eyes makes me wonder.
The way you feel.
And you never feel safe enough to tell me.
I love to see it in your eyes because that is the night that I read your mind.
And yes I love you too and believe me I love you more.
She Screams
She screams out in anguish.
Cries that bellowing noise.
Barraging your ears with sorrow.
While tears filled both sets of eyes.
Wondering what to do now.
Screaming never ceased.
Tearing you apart from both sides.
Your soul is screaming louder.
While your heart starts to cry.
Make the fire burn down.
There is no reason to die.
You want to find a way now.
To live with that torture.
She screams louder and louder.
And her heart cries out more.
The weakness she is feeling.
Is crushing her threw the door.
She wants to shut the spirits, up without a doubt.
So many questions she can’t answer.
And some she will find out.
And when you burn in Hell.
For covering up your ears.
To the sound of her barrage of sorrow.
Was wrong.
You ran from the noise.
While some came to help.
To sooth, them in pain.
She screams but only quite now.
Because she found people that never run away.
She screams out in anguish.
Cries that bellowing noise.
Barraging your ears with sorrow.
While tears filled both sets of eyes.
Wondering what to do now.
Screaming never ceased.
Tearing you apart from both sides.
Your soul is screaming louder.
While your heart starts to cry.
Make the fire burn down.
There is no reason to die.
You want to find a way now.
To live with that torture.
She screams louder and louder.
And her heart cries out more.
The weakness she is feeling.
Is crushing her threw the door.
She wants to shut the spirits, up without a doubt.
So many questions she can’t answer.
And some she will find out.
And when you burn in Hell.
For covering up your ears.
To the sound of her barrage of sorrow.
Was wrong.
You ran from the noise.
While some came to help.
To sooth, them in pain.
She screams but only quite now.
Because she found people that never run away.
