i miss you. so much. i feel so foolish and stupid. from the beginning i knew you'd break me. but i didnt care because what we had was so strong. why'd you do it baby? what was missing between us? what happened to the late phone calls, the sweet texts, calling me beautiful, caressing my cheek, me cheering you on at your games, and only being there for you, what happened to the connection we had? but wait. isnt it still there? isnt that why we stare into each others eyes until someone tells us to move in the halls? isnt that why we ask other people how the other is doing like five times a day? isnt that why we hugged so much when you left me? isnt it still there? that spark? its been a long time since i've talked to you. the feelings havent left tho. you have no idea what you do to me. i feel even more delusional when i get a text and hope its you. or if someone calls me i hope its you. or when someone ims me, i hope its you. but it never is.... the tears still fall for you, the pain still feels just as strong, the love still keeps my heart beating three times more than it should be, and i keep playing our song on my ipod, over and over. it just hurts me more, but its the only way you're with me anymore. our picture on my camera is the closest you get to me these days, the most painful days of heartbreak, when you're still in the same spot he left you in when your heart first shattered, and you still havent picked up the pieces....
