i understand feeling as small and insignificant as humanly possible. and how it can actually ache in places you didnt know you had inside you. and it doesnt matter how many new haircuts u get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay u drink with ur girlfriends....you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have miss understood and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. and sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. and after all that , however long all that may be, you'll go some where new . and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again .and little peices of your soul will finally come back. and all that fuzzy stuff , those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.......
