It's been three years.
I don't know which part should hurt the most.
My heart?My soul?My body?
all of it does.
My heart aches from the break.
My soul aches because she's JUST LIKE ME.
My body aches from crying,and screaming,
and wanting nothing more than to understand all of this.
There are bruises on my knees
from praying to have you back again.
& it's not fair for me to hate either of you,
but i do.
I hate you because you make me love you so much.
you are my one weakness.
& It's been three years.
You don't understand the
amount of strength it takes
to walk past you in the hallway.
You don't know what it's like
to be on the verge of tears
all day long.
And you don't know what it's like
to be completely in love with someone
who doesn't want you back.
It's the kind of horrible,excrutiating pain
that i have to feel every day of my life.
It's the very worst kind of hell,
knowing i-let-you-go.
It gets harder
everyday.
&
It's been three years.