& i've said almost everything i
could to make you see. & none of it was meant to make you feel
bad for me because i would rather have you absolutely hate me then
feel bad for me. i don't need your pity. and maybe i'm just a
girl and another girl who came along and cried their eyes and heart
out for you. and maybe i'm just someone to you. someone you could
careless about. but you're something to me. you're a lot to me. i'm
sure you don't give. but oh well. i'll just sit here and smile and
pretend i'm happy for you when i'm not. at all. i'll stop trying if
you want. just tell me to. i wish i didn't care and i know i
shouldn't, but i do. there is just something about you. could be
that smile lighting up the room. those eyes - warm as the sun. and
those reassuring words that keep me coming back. maybe one day
you'll realize that i love you. see that i've done everything i can
for you. that i've been here all along. and maybe you don't know
i've realized you think i'm not good enough for you, nothing is
ever good enough for you. realize that you love her, but i'm in
love with you. that you just come up with excuses not to try for
me. you just live to break me. you always have, always will. just
like i have always loved you, always will..♥
wrote this awhile back..