think of crying as a way to get rid of all the bad stuff... but
lately i can't get myself to cry... and right now i want it i want
for get rid of you for just a moment and let me relax without
worrying about what i should do to keep you or if you even should
be with me. right now i cannot take it... i need a desicion i want
to forget that we're best friends forget that one thing thats
holding us back and take a chance... we both know why it wouldn't
work out if one of us ended it i... i cannot beleive i am saying
this but if being with you means being heart broken in the end im
all for it because i want you and i need you now... that means as
soon as possible but you would be the perfect birthday present.
please just take a risk you wouldn't mess it up i'd... eventually
bounce back... but now that i think about it why would i want you
if i knew id be trying to get over you ... i don't want to get over
you! i want to dance with you and only you at my brithday
party i want forget all those other guys that ask me to dance and
stay with you the entire night just to hear you laugh at the weird
people dancing together and this time i don't want your friend
right behind you messing with you i just want you close to me for a
while even if that means for just one song... but baby don't mess
with my heart you don't wanna be that kinda guy and if you do end
up like that again breaking my heart again then my friends might
tell me that i should hate you and they want to hurt you but i
don't want that i won't let them you mean too much to me just to
let it all slip away and i remember the first day at school we went
out and you had just broken up with your other
girlfriend(im sorry caroline you'll see why im typing
this all in the end) you had flashed that bright
smile at me and asked me if I'd gotton any threats and just that
was enough to make my heart skip a beat but you best beleive i love
you as your best friend as more we won't know that and i hate when
people say you don't fall iin love til your older because i no
theres all that crap about hormones but when you find that person
you no it you feel it in your gut and you being my firast love
might be all it is but your my first so what am i supposed to do
why on earth can i not get over you....
so if you've read all of this you are
gonna find out why i typed it all... even after typing that all and
listening to the song that doesnt even remind me of you but is that
sappy sweet stuff that i actually like i still cannot shead a
thetruthaboutme; i fall to easily.
i crush to quickly.
i cry when no one is looking.
i don't have a bestfriend.
i can never make up my mind.
i'm the bully, &the victim.
i suffer from chronic depression.
i can't change who i am, & i won't for anyone.
i'm an unconfident person, & it's always going to be that
i can brighten your day, even if i can't brighten my own.
i don't tolerate being called an, 'emo.'
i can't stand not using proper grammer.
i make mistakes.
i learn from the mistakes i make, & try not to make them
i am capable of tripping up the stairs.
i am addicted to technology.
i am not a 'straight A' student.
i don't like to listen in class.
i hate the forwards that say, "if you beleive in God, you
would send this."
it's not easy for me to tell people about the scars on my
i'm young, but in love.
i'v ehad my heartbroken many times.
i've broken my fair share of hearts, too though.
& the last truth about me is; i'm perfectlyimperfect.
1. Who was your last text
from? gina 2. Your
relationship status? singleee 4. Have you ever lost a
close friend? yeahhh. 5. What is your current mood?
tireddd. 6. Whats your
brother(s)/sister(s) brianna 7. Do you have a job?
nopeee. 8. Where do you wish
you were right now? gina's. 9. Have a
crazy side? who doesnt??? 10. Ever had an almost-death
experience? i think. 11. Something you do a lot? text and
hang out with gina.
12. angry with anyone? kindaaa. 13. Whats stopping
you from going for the person you like? her. 14.When
was the last time you cried? today. 15. Is there anyone you
would do anything for? oh yeah! 16. What do you think
about when you are falling asleep? idk person you talked to
on the phone?gina What is your favorite
song? every single one possible prolly. 19. What are you
doing right now? survey and texting gina. 20. Who do you
trust right now? gina. you are wearing? pajamas 22. Have you kissed
someone in the past week? no one besides family. 23. Who is your friend
that lives closest to you?
elizabeth 24. Describe your
life in one word. crazy should you be doing
right now? going to bed. 27. What are you
listening to? tv and me typing 28. Who was the last person who gave
you a hug? ginaaa. 29. Who was the last
person who yelled at you? mum 30. Do you act differently around
the person you like? not really. 31. What is your
natural hair color? dirty blonde 32. Who was the last
person to make you laugh really hard? gina. 33. Who are you
currently texting? gina. 34. What do you hear?
the tv and me typing. 35. Is your hair
curly or straight? boff. 36. Has anyone called you
"scrumptious" latley? lol, ummm,
no. 39. Do you use smiley faces on the
computer? mhm. 40. Have you ever
changed clothes in a vehicle? yepp, lol. 41. Are you happy with
your life right now? sure. 42. Are you currently
jealous? nahh. 43. What jewelry are
you currently wearing? necklace. 44. What are
you doing this weekend? hanging out with gina. . Have you ever had your