i
awoke to his beautiful eyes staring into mine. i immediately
remembered what happened, and i sat up, and i felt nauseous, and
leaned over and threw up. i quickly cleaned up, and looked at
cole apologetically.
"sorry." i apologized. "wow, when i was 12, i
didn't get this sick." i remembered.
"its okay baby." he said, and he kissed my cheek. i
scooted over on the bed, and he laid next to me. i put my
head on his muscular chest. he played football and
baseball. he was an amazing pitcher. there were several
colleges scouting him already as a junior. i just wanted to
live through junior year.
"what's it feel like? if you don't mind me
asking." cole said. his chest vibrated as he
spoke. surprisingly, it soothed my headache.
"well, i'm nauseous, as you can tell. and everything
aches. and when i say everything, i mean everything. it
feels like, like" i was searching for the right words. i
felt his eyes on me. "the best way i can explain it, is
it feels like i'm dying." i said, and my eyes started to
tear.
"baby, baby no." cole said, and he tipped my chin
up. "the doctors are doing this to get rid of what's
happening to you. they're making you better." he
said, and he placed a dainty kiss on my lips.
"i know. i just have to remind myself of that
sometimes." i admitted. he wiped the tear rolling off my
cheek.
"if anything ever happened to you, i wouldn't know what i
would do."
"that's why i'll always be here." i promised.
"you'd better." his stomach growled.
"when did you eat last?"
"lunch."
"that was at 11:30. cole it's 5. go get something
to eat now." i demanded him.
"i don't like the cafeteria food. it's okay."
"go to mcdonalds or something. i'll be fine. you
can come back whenever, i'll still be here. go and eat!"
i said, and i grabbed his keys off the counter.
"okay." he said, and he leaned down to kiss me.
"i love you."
"i love you too." i said, and he kissed my cheek.
"don't die on me." he smiled.
"i won't." i promised. his gorgeous blue eyes
mesmorized me for a second. "am i really that bad
looking?"
"no. you just look pained." he said.
"i feel pain." i said.
"i don't have to leave."
"yes you do. go. now!"
"love you." he said, and he walked out the
door.
"love you too." i said to my now empty room. too
bad i had gotten all my sleep when he was here because now my
pounding headache kept me awake. i feel like i haven't seen cole in
forever, because our time had been cut so short so recently,
because my frequent doctor appointments, we've been apart.
and stupid me just fell asleep when he was here. i tried to get
more sleep as i dreamt about our first date together.
&
He said to
me, " When I see you, I don't just see pretty.
I get: breath-takingly beautiuful,
and one of the most amazing girls I've ever seen in my
entire life." And in that moment, I proceeded to fall in l
o v
e .
♥