Guys or
Death?
Chapter
10
"Ok, what do you want to
know?" Jayden said smiling and rubbing my hand.
"How was your surgery? Are you fine now?"
"The surgery went well, especially the dream," Jayden
kept smiling at me and tried to kiss my hand.
"Yeah, I loved the dream. Did you feel any pain when you
woke up?"
"Yeah, I was in a LOT of pain. I was very stiff. They gave
me some pills and a shot."
"That's good. What are they gonna do about your fragile
nose?"
"I actaully don't know. They haven't told me."
"Awwww. What are they doing tomorrow?"
"They are going to stitch up the rest of the cuts today.
They aren't finish with them."
"Ouch. I'm so sorry, Jayden! I'm so sorry! I wish this never
happened."
"Alex, it's alright. I'm fine, we are gonna be FINE. As long
as we are together. I can't go through this without you. I have
to see you everyday, to know you are fine. I know I've told you
this before, but I want you to know, I mean it."
"I love you Jayden. I love you SOOOO MUCH. I love youuuu. I
have to see your eyes and your smile every minute, but sometimes
I can't. I want to get out of here.. It's getting on my nerves
and it's boring."
I tried to get up and kiss him. I got up, with my head spinning.
I wabbled while trying to get ot him.
"What are you doing? You don't need to get up. Lay back
down, Alex."
"I'm coming over to you. I'm gonna lay on your cot with
you."
"Come on over," he said smiling, again.
I gently tried to get on it, I was very weak. He tried helping me
up, and I got up there.
"Come here baby."
"I'm coming." I got on top of him and grabbed his face
and started kissing him. I licked his face. We started laughing.
I tried to be gentle I didn't know if he was in pain. We haven't
had a real kiss in a while.
"Am I hurting you?"
"No, you're really light. You haven't been eating?"
"I don't know. I've lost my appetite."
I lifted his shirt and rubbed his stomach. He moved my hair and
kissed from my forehead to my neck. I laughed and he stared in my
eyes.
"Your eyes are gorgeous. I could swim in them."
I stared in his.
"Your eyes are beautiful."
"Thanks baby. I love you."
"I love you, too," I said and kissed his lips for 3
minutes.
I lost my breath and asked him something.
"Jayden, can I ask you something?"
"Ask away, Alex!"
"When we get to to your house, can I sleep with
you?"
"Of course you can! You're gonna sleep with me every night,
for the rest of my life, I mean our life."
I grabbed his face, again and kissed him hard. I was getting
rough. I stuck my toung in his mouth a french kissed. He grabbed
my face and looked worrited.
"Alex, what are you
doing?"
"I'm kissing you.."
"You've never done this before."
"Well, I am now."
"Why?"
"Because, I love you and you mean alot to me now. I've seen
you in a better way."
"Oh, okk."
"Do you not believe me? Or you think I'm doing it for
another reason?"
"I do believe you, it's juss that you only started doing
that now since we got hurt."
"Do you think I'm loving you because we got hurt? Is that
what your saying?"
"No, I'm not saying that. I was juss wondering. You've never
done that before."
"Well, I'll stop now."
Again we fought because of me. I was always the problem. I got up
from his cot and went back to mine. I scooted mine over to be
away from him. I didn't want to be by someone who didn't want me
loving them.
"Alex, I'm sorry."
I didn't answer for a minute. "I've heard that
before.""Alex, please talk to
me."
"I am."
"Look at me, please?"
Why does he care? I didn't want to talk to him.
Again, I didn't say a word.
I heard footsteps. Did someone come in here while we were
talking? They came closer and closer. I felt warmth around me.
Heat. I felt breath and heard words.
"Alex, please. I want to tell you
something."