Guys or
Death?
Chapter 43
We looked through pictures,
yearbooks, I drew on some paper. I hung the paper on his desk, so
he could see it. It said:
Zach<3
Alex
Loves
You(:
I flipped through
his yearbooks from different schools. I laughed a lot. It was
funny!
"Oh my gosh, you look so cute in the picture!" I said
pointing to his yearbook picture. It was the 7th grade. We have
been friends every since the 8th grade, when he moved here.
"I look like an idoit!"
"No you don't! You were so cute," I said laughing
and he was getting embarrassed.
"Whatever."
I got something to eat at his house, and we lied in his bed
eating.
We juss stared at each other, like always.
He stroked my hair, and I stared in his beautiful blue eyes.
"Zach, why don't you have a girlfriend?" I asked
while we stared at each other.
"I don't need one."
"I'm surprised you don't have one. I thought the
girls would be all over you."
"No, I guess not."
"Why not? Have you ever been asked out?"
"Yeah, I have. A couple of times."
'Why didn't you say yes?"
"Because, I have you."
"I have a boyfriend."
"I have a bestfriend."
"You need company."
"I don't mind being alone."
"I want you to grow up, have a family, with kids."
"You're worrying about my future?"
"I guess. I would like to see my bestfriend get married, and
have kids I guess."
"Awwww."
"So is there another reason why you didn't say
yes?"
"Well, for some reason.. nevermind. It's too
much."
"Tell me!"
"You'll think I'm thinking the wrong way. And
it's nothing. I would hate to tell you, since you have a
boyfriend."
"Please? I want to know. I don't think I'll take it
weird."
"Fine."
"Yay!"
"Well, I never said yes to the girls who asked me out
because, I thought one day we would be together," he said
looking ashamed and dropped his eyes from mine.
"Zach, I juss.. I'm sorry," I said and got closer
to him to hug him tight.
"There's no reason too be."
"Yes! I should have known. I was stupid to not notice
that!"
"I didn't make it noticeable. I juss tried to be a good
friend."
"You have been and will be! I love you, still."
He stayed still, and I started to sob.
"Why are you crying?" he asked my in my ear. We were
close and we stayed still.
"Because, I love you. And I made you not have a
relationship. I never told you anything that meant more than
friends."
'No, it's not your fault. It's mine for thinking that
in my head. For not going out with anyone, because you were the
only one in my head."
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," I repeated over and
over and kissed him.
He meant the world to me now, and I cared for him so much.
"I love you," he told me.
I kept crying softly and kissed his lips softly. He was so warm,
and I got his shirt wet. He had to change. I went in his bathroom
and fixed my makeup, and we left for the hospital.
While we walked downstairs to the door, I held his hand in mine.
Before we got in the car, I hugged his waist and kissed him once
last time.
I drove and he sat in the passenger seat. He held my hand the
whole time. We were silent.
We reached the hospital and I saw the same lady.
"Alex, how are you?"
"I'm getting better. School is starting soon! And Jayden
is coming home today."
"Oh, that's wonderful! I wish the best of luck to you!
That's what I heard. I'm happy for you and him."
"Thanks."
We went to his room, and he smiled at us.
'Baby, you came."
I went over to him, and kissed his lips. He was so bright and
well.
"Yeah, of course I did. You are getting out today, so
yeah."
While we kissed, I thought how big of a pain it was for Zach to
watch me, after how many times I kissed him, how we stared into
each other's eyes, how many time I said I love him.
I let go by thinking of him, and brought Zach over here.
"Jayden, this is Zach."
"Nice to meet you, Jayden."
"Nice to see you too, Zach."
They shook hands and we pulled up a chair to sit down.
"What time are you coming home?" I asked.
"Like in an hour or so."
"Oh,that's nice."
"Yeah, I can finally sleep in my own bed."
"I know! It's been a while."
"Yeah."
"I need to check on Mel soon. I haven't talked to her in
a while. And tell my parents how the party went."
"How is Mel?"
"Good, I guess. I caught her and John in her room, sleeping
on the floor. I know they didn't do antyhing. She is only
12."
"Aww! That so sweet."
"I know, and they kissed!"
"That's amazing!"
"Yeah."
Zach wasn't speaking at all. I bet he felt so out of place.
Jayden was coming home with us, and I didn't want Zach to
leave me.
We were all quiet for a minute, and the nurse came in and told us
we had to leave. Jayden needed last check-ups and other stuff,
before he left.
I kissed Jayden for like 3 seconds and then I got up. He
gave me a confused face, and I juss smiled and waved.
Zach and I headed for my car.
"What was that, Alex?"
"What?"
"You didn't even kiss him long, or say goodbe, or I love
you."
"Why were you being so observant?"
"Answer my question first."
"I don't know!"
"Alex, if this is causing to much, then we can't hang
around for a long period of time. Ever since last night, you
don't care about Jayden as much."
"No! Please, please still be my friend. I can't loose
you. How would you know?"
"Your facebook status, every time I texted you like weeks
ago, you had to go because you were with Jayden. "
"Zach, I don't know! I don't see him the same way
anymore."
"He hasn't changed a bit, you have."
"I've changed? Oh please."
"Alex, juss tell me. What is on your mind right
now?"
I paused and stared in his eyes.
"You."
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Dear _______
,
I love you and I definitely always will but I can't do this
anymore. I have to move on because it's quite obvious
that you have. I know you think I'll always be here and
I think you take advantage of that sometimes but I cant do
this anymore and if you ever loved me..at all, you would want me
to be happy. I have to do this for me. You'll definitely
always be important to me but you just cant be the biggest part
of my life anymore. You will always be special to me..you
were the first person I ever loved and because of that you'll
always have a special place in my heart. Love you and take
care.
Love,
Me