"Have ... have any of you ... lost that one
friend ... that person who you thought will ALWAYS be there. Who
said they would always be there, but, then, they got tired of you,
or fed up with you, or just stopped caring about you, and they just
left? After promising you they would never leave they break that
promise? You have other friends, people who are your best friends,
but that person just meant something to you, something really
special, and while those other best friends of yours are people who
you would die for in a minute, and they are still there and you
know they always will be, you just feel... empty because they take
that specialness away because they just don't care anymore.
They accuse their leaving of being your fault. They say it's
because you stopped caring. Because you pushed them away farther
than they could take. Because you just weren't good enough.
Because you just didn't try hard enough. They say that if you
cares, that if you didn't push them away, that if you were good
enough, that if you tried harder, then they would still be there.
But, what I don't understand is why they can't understand
that the only reason I push someone away was because I loved them
so much, and that they meant so much to me, and that I got scared.
I was frightened that they would take that love away. And I was
right. They did. Why can't they