;
Panic Attack.
Time slows to a crawl, each grain of sand in the
hour glass suspended
midair before finally dripping through. My boredom is
crushing. I feel like a vacuum is sucking the air from my lungs. My
heart races. My wrist
throb. There's a gushing in my ears. I could die. Right here, Right now. I close
my eyes, breathe.
Breathe to fight the
burgeoning panic. So close to feeling like maybe, just maybe I have
a chance at being okay. So close to feel normal. Regular. Not a
misfit at all, but
someone worthy of a friend and not only a friend, but a boyfriend.
Which means letting someone in, through to me. OH GOD. Breathe deep, the threat of
suffocation recedes. The all encompassing terror falls far, far away. I am,
in fact okay. For the moment... -
Ryan.