shut up and kiss me
11
It’s been a month since the
party and I haven’t talked to Aaron since. I’ve been
going out a lot with Stacey and Alex and that haven’t gave
me time to text him, so I’m going to text him today. Stacey
is at some family dinner and Alex left the city to visit his
grandparents. I called Aaron and he didn’t answer.
Me: aaron plz call me
It’s been an hour and he
hasn’t answered.
Me:
mmm.. idk why u r not answering so im just gonna ask u what I
needed 2 ask u here: u know i love u. but do u really do love me?
plz. i need the truth
And I pressed the button ‘send’ after about 20
minutes my phone vibrated.
Aaron:
ummm… maybe… I dont really knnow
I called Stacey “Hey Cass” “Hey Stacey” I
told her and I said I didn’t know what to write back
“Just answer okay” “Okay, thanks”
“Welcome. And got to go, my mom is mad because I’m
using my phone in the table” “Hahaha, okay. Love
you” “Love you too hun” and she hung
up.
Me:
ok…
I got into my bed with my ipod and put it on shuffle and full
volume. I just needed to leave the world, and music is what I
needed right now… maybe, it’s maybe. Yeah, maybe can
mean a yes! aahh!! I just couldn’t stop thinking of Aaron,
but it’s a maybe. After 10 songs ‘Flake’ from
Jack Johnson started. Maybe, yes. It can mean a yes too. It has
better possibilities it is a yes “it seems to me that maybe
pretty much always means no” damn, great song but it ruined
my good thoughts. And I started crying. He doesn’t love
me… maybe always means no! and I cried myself to
sleep.
opinions? should I keep on
going?