Quotes added on Sunday, February 20 2011
hold your head up high, blink back the tears and say goodbye
Part four
Everything went down hill., we
started to ague . He started not to care . He started to yell at
me . And I started to cry . My heart got more and more attached
by the day . I talked about him more than ever . I fought with
him because I could . I thought he would put up with it I tried
to change myself but it never worked . I made it seem like I
couldn’t live without him . But I thought we could make it
through this happened for months after months he kept forgiving
so I kept doing but then it got to a point that we didn’t
talk and he was so mad at me . I waited a little while and
then I met this girl who I adore now she is my best friend and I
cant live without her, turns out . She is his best friend. So she
got him to say happy birthday to me and he offered to start
over. And of course I was so excited to start over,
(full thing on my page)
how
could you
care if dont cross
your mind?
Part three
Start of 8th grade he was erased
from my memory . But one day I walked by him and I had to look
another two times to fathom even seeing him again . My heart sank
. My eyes lit up . Butterflies flew in my stomach . I had a big
smile on my face. I found him on face book and tried to start
over with a new year a new friendship and maybe I would tell him
but I said something to somebody who knew him so they told him I
liked him . I was devastated I wanted to know this boy as a
person before anything else . But we started talking again but
middle school drama started to get into this . We fought . I was
scared of him . My friends tell me I am the strongest person they
have ever met, nobody scared me . But I was terrified of him . He
gave me this feeling that was so hard to explain it was amazing
the best feeling around . But he scared me and I wanted him so
bad. I saw him after 3 different classes and those 3 seconds I
got to see his face was the most amazing thing ever , but I never
got the guts to talk to him when others were around. More and
more I would talk about him . I couldn’t help but think .
Is it possible to love somebody I barely know ? I always thought
about him . He was always on my mind, every second of the day was
about him . I couldn’t help it . He was so perfect for me
and everyone says we would be cute., I wanted it to turn into
something but people told me it wouldn’t . that
didn’t make me stop believing I learned more about him .
Like he never had a girlfriend before. I couldn’t believe
it . He was just this guy that I adored ,
(full thing on my page)
that awkward moment when
when you
feel like a paper bag & theres no song for
you
The worst feeling
ever?
trying
to hold
back
your
tears<3
Part two
I went from liking this boy to boy
crazy in one year . It was the best therapy for me . I never
though of anything else. I never thought of him again we
“hated each other.” we made it seem that way
atleast . If you brought him up to me I would say _____ who ? I
erased him from my memory because that class was over and I
didn’t see him anymore I thought it would just go away and
I would never see him again . None of my friends knew him cause
he went to a different school but in my district. I had more
boyfriend and crushes that year . I met new people and I was
happy . I was living life the way I should’ve been no care
in the world . Just smiles and giggles. I was the player . I
didn’t want the relationships I wanted to hook up . Life
was good , I never thought at 14 I would be depressed . At the
time everything was just for fun . I liked a celebrity
that’s all . I didn’t want a boy in my life . Get
real
(full thing on my page)
Part one
September 9th 2009 starting a new
school not ready for anything big. I walk into a classroom and I
see this face . A angel face that I adored . I knew this was
going to spirile out of control . I never thought I would have
the guts to tell him . But instead to get closer I dated his best
friend, I was stupid and it was the worst idea ever. I have to
see his face everyday knowing I could never have the strength to
tell him how I felt / I acted like I hated him for no reason I
acted like I hated somebody who I thought was extremely
attractive I never told a soul who he was and that I liked him
from day one I always though he was better than me I never
thought I would have been good enough for this angel faced boy
who I wanted to be in a relationship with . Nobody could compare
to him . I never thought I had a type but its true I do . He was
perfect and unique in my mind I could never amount up to telling
him . I thought he would just disapear ,the feelings would just
go away or at least that’s what I thought , but once again
I was wrong I never tried to get to know him I never tried
anything . I just dropped it at that and that’s how it
would be . Only because I thought this boy was so much better
than me
(full thing on my page)
❝Sometimes, there are no
words. No clever quotes to
neatly sum up what's happened that
day.
Sometimes, the day
just ends.❞
--Aaron Hotcher; Criminal Minds♥
Starting
Over 29
“Good morning class! How is everyone this fine evening?” My English said as she got settled at her neatly organized desk. She was young, and pretty. She had to be about 25. She had short, reddish-brown hair with what looked like brown eyes, was tall and thin. She looked at a sheet of paper then up at everyone. Probably taking attendance. She then stopped.
“Ah, I see we have a new student. You must be” She stopped and looked down at the sheet searching for my name. “Emma. Correct?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, welcome. I’m Mrs. Reynolds.” She looked up and smiled. She started talking again but I kind of just blocked her out. I looked over to Drew. He was already looking at me. I opened up my notebook and took out my pen so I could write him a note. But before I could write anything, he took the pen from my hand and slid my notebook over to him.
So… about that date…
I read it and smiled a little. I took the pen from him.
Hey… I said I’d think about it. Don’t push it. :P
Mrs. Reynolds walked by Drew and I and tapped on the table, probably to tell us to pay attention. I closed my notebook and threw it back in my bag. From 1st period through the end of 5th period was a blur. Before I knew it, it was time for lunch. I met up with Sadie outside of my bio classroom and we walked to my locker.
“So, how’s your day goin so far Em?” Sadie said as I opened my locker and threw three textbooks I got earlier in there and put up a little poster thing I got out of a magazine that was of Zac Efron shirtless. He’s so hot.
“Pretty good. That Drew kid isn’t so bad.” I said as I closed my locker.
“Oh yeah? He’s really hot. Go for it.” She nudged my shoulder and winked. “Just watch out for Tiffany. She’ll try and steal him from you like she’s been trying to get with him since last year. It’s pathetic. Haha.” We laughed then started for the cafeteria.
“Good morning class! How is everyone this fine evening?” My English said as she got settled at her neatly organized desk. She was young, and pretty. She had to be about 25. She had short, reddish-brown hair with what looked like brown eyes, was tall and thin. She looked at a sheet of paper then up at everyone. Probably taking attendance. She then stopped.
“Ah, I see we have a new student. You must be” She stopped and looked down at the sheet searching for my name. “Emma. Correct?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, welcome. I’m Mrs. Reynolds.” She looked up and smiled. She started talking again but I kind of just blocked her out. I looked over to Drew. He was already looking at me. I opened up my notebook and took out my pen so I could write him a note. But before I could write anything, he took the pen from my hand and slid my notebook over to him.
So… about that date…
I read it and smiled a little. I took the pen from him.
Hey… I said I’d think about it. Don’t push it. :P
Mrs. Reynolds walked by Drew and I and tapped on the table, probably to tell us to pay attention. I closed my notebook and threw it back in my bag. From 1st period through the end of 5th period was a blur. Before I knew it, it was time for lunch. I met up with Sadie outside of my bio classroom and we walked to my locker.
“So, how’s your day goin so far Em?” Sadie said as I opened my locker and threw three textbooks I got earlier in there and put up a little poster thing I got out of a magazine that was of Zac Efron shirtless. He’s so hot.
“Pretty good. That Drew kid isn’t so bad.” I said as I closed my locker.
“Oh yeah? He’s really hot. Go for it.” She nudged my shoulder and winked. “Just watch out for Tiffany. She’ll try and steal him from you like she’s been trying to get with him since last year. It’s pathetic. Haha.” We laughed then started for the cafeteria.
