love is complicated.
im not sure if its love, probably not, but whose to say what is and
isn't love? to me, love is caring for, wanting to be with and
being comfortable with someone. I feel that with him. But with the
definition i just made, i guess i love my best friend too. Which is
how i really feel. Im torn. He lives far away, and my best friend
lives 10 minutes away. My best friend and I both want to kiss each
other, we flirt, and well, we've seen sides of each other no
one else has. But i've known "him" my whole life, and
there is no escaping him. He will always be there; our dads are
best friends. He was my first kiss, which was beyond perfect. But i
havent talked to him in close to a month now, and i hate it. Our
parents want us to get married and tease us about it constantly.
Which is good but bad, cause things happened which is why we havent
talked in so long, so when my parents bring him up, its tough for
me to just play it off like nothing happened. I still like him, but
it will never work, at least while we are still in high school, and
its veryyy unlikely we will go to the same college. Basically it
wont work. Now my best friend and i, we could work. easily. And my
family knows him, and likes him, but its different. Hes a different
religion and in the long run, i want to marry within my religion, i
mean im only a freshman in highschool, but these are things that i
think about and are important to me. This was just things i needed
to get off my chest.