Quotes added on Tuesday, April 19 2011

time after time
 part #58

(SORRY ! i've been soooo busy with work and lax, but here's a new addition, and i might add another one too ! comment with what yoou think ! )
 

i woke up and rolled over to an empty bed.  i looked around the room, and it was empty, the sun was shining through the window like it was specifically seeking out my eyes to shine into. no one was in cordin's house, so i made his bed and cleaned his room a little bit.  there was a picture of him and his mom.  his mom was wearing a pink hat to cover her bald head, and it was after the race for the cure.  my eyes started watering and i walked out of his room.  there was a note on the counter addressed to me, so i read it.
"mom's viewing at 11, and the burial's at 1."  the clock read 11:30, so i trudged over to my house.  i took a shower, and curled my hair.  i put on a black sweater with my black skirt, tights and black flats.  the jacket covered my bright blue cast, because for may it was oddly cold.  my hair was in a ponytail with a headband, and i checked the obituary, and i recognized the address immediately.  they were burying cordin's mom at the same cemetary as rob's.  i wiped a tear as i drove forty five minutes to the cemetary in new jersey.  i pulled into the cemetary, and there was a green tent right where they were going to bury her.  i saw cordin pacing around a good 50 feet away.  my heart broke as i got out of the car and walked over to him to see his red, tear stained face.  tears had already fallen down my face, and he wrapped me up in a huge hug.  as he released me, i wiped a tear falling from his eye, and whispered "it's going to be okay."  he turned as another family member diverted his attention, when i saw something out of the corner of my eye.  first, all i saw was the huge tree that rob was buried near, then as my eyes wandered towards his grave, i saw him standing there, looking at his grave.  i looked around and everyone was heading towards the tombstone area.  i couldn't watch anyone else too young be put into the ground, so i walked over to his grave. 
"rob?" i called out, and he turned his head, and his creased forehead and furrowed brow turned into a huge smile, as he gave me a hug, and kissed my cheek.  i felt him there, rob was with me.
"what are you doing baby?" i whispered through the tears streaming down my face.
"looking at this tombstone.  they did an awful job at cutting the edges," he showed at one of the edges i haven't noticed. 
"there's something else wrong with it," i whispered, and he wiped a tear, and lifted my head to see his.
"what baby?" he whispered.
"rob, it doesn't belong here." i said, and started balling, "just like hers doesn't deserve to be there, rob why is this world so cruel." i whispered, and he quieted me, and we sat on the ground, and leaned on someone else's tombstone. 
"rob why did they take you?" i said, and put my head on his shoulder. 
"excuse me." i heard a high pitched voice yell, and as soon as i heard it, i knew i was home.
"what?" i looked up at rob, and a huge smile was on his face.  i looked around his shoulder, and saw a girl about 18 walking towards us.  she had short blonde hair and huge green eyes.
"no,"
"why him, why him?" she imitated me, and i smiled.  "ever ask why me?" she laughed, and i got up and jumped into her arms.
"only every day." as more tears streamed down my face.  "melanie how did you get here?"
"he told me you were going to be here today.  i'm not sure how he does it, but he does it." she smiled, and elbowed rob, who was still on the ground.  "if i was still there when you met him, i would have approved."
"melanie, is this what you would have looked like?" i asked.
"well to your eyes, yes.  hair's grown back thank god." i laughed.
"nice going on your arm." she said, and poked at the cast.
"wasn't my finest moment." i said.
"i know. i saw." she said, and shook her head.
"i miss you." i said, and another tear slid down my face, as she looked up, and saw cordin walking away from the crowd of people that were now standing.  i looked at him, and back at mel and rob.
"go get him, i'll come visit you later." she said, and walked away. rob looked at me with his big blue rob eyes, and i started crying. he wrapped me in a hug, and i just silently broke down.
"he needs you now. you don't need me." he said. i looked up at him.
"yes i do.  don't leave." i said, and he kissed my cheek, and disappeared.  i guess he already did.