It's never getting
I took a shower when Caleb left. Without my stomach covered up, it
looks horrible. It looks like there's a hole in my stomach. I
live in Arizona, so it's warm pretty much all year round, and i
wont even be able to wear my bikini. I continued taking a shower,
singing songs by All Tome Low, and Rilent K. I couldn't stop
thinking about it.. When i got out of the shower, i changed into
something like :http://weheartit.com/entry/10866243
I flipped my hair to one side and wringed it out a
little. I went to watch tv with my mom for a few minutes, when
i get a text from Caleb asking me to meet him at the beach.
Great. Bikini.. I went to my room and shut the door. I got into
my dresser and got my bathing suit out, and put it under my
clothes. Then i walked to the beach. When i got there, there were a
few guys there, but not Caleb. I started getting worried, but i
don't call him. I just stay calm and stand
by the shore, taking my flip-flops off, and carying
them. Someone comes running from behind me, and hugs me from
behind. Its Caleb. I hugged him, and he said "No swim
suit?" Looking at my stomach. It still hurts.. but im fine.
"I wore it underneath.. "
Then he gets it and says "Oh.." With a
pause. "Does it still hurt? Let me see, is
it deep?" I frowned and let him lift my shirt up, and
hear him say "Holy Sh*t, dude." Tears start rolling down
my cheeks, the pain is getting worse and his reaction
didn't make it any better. "I know, there's going to
be a huge scar. I wonder if i'll ever be able to wear
a bikini ever again.." I said, sort of un
understandingly. I hugged him, and i needed comfort.