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For A Reason

Chapter 5

The next morning (Saturday) I applied for a job at the local food market not to far from my house. The market was small so I didn't need to fill out a legitimate application. All I needed to do was show that I knew basic stacking skills and that I had the capability of working a cash register. So I got the job. Everyone there was friendly and quiet. Maybe to quiet at times. But I still liked the place.

On Monday Amanda and Adam practically stalked me the whole day. Amanda wrote me sorry notes and showered my locker with them. It got old so I didn't sit with her at lunch. Adam tried to stop me and talk but I knew he was going to address the whole Jason issue. I didn't want to hear it. I didn't want to deal with it. I just wanted to go through the day without feeling terrible. Unfortunately he caught me after school.

 "Bella you've been avoiding me all day." I could tell he was mad but he didn't want to show it. He wanted to show concern.

 "Your a smart one." I was already annoyed and I knew my sarcasm bothered him.

"Well can we talk?"

 "Do I really have a choice?"

 He shifted his eyebrows and stared angrily at me. "Not anymore ya don't."

 I rolled my eyes.

 "Look I just wanted to make sure that you were ok is all."

 "I'm alive aren't I?"

 He let out an angry sigh. "Geez. Ya know why do you have to be so mean? All I wanted to know if you were ok because I care about you. But all you are is cruel and short with me." He squinted his eyes and shook his head "no".

 He was right. I was being a terrible person to him. I don't even know why. He was the one that walked me home. He was the one that apologized for something he didn't even do. What's wrong with me? I stopped for a minute and then said,

 "Your right Adam. I'm sorry. I don't know what's wrong with me. This isn't your fault and I'm treating you like it is." I let out a deep breath and looked down.

 He put his hand on my shoulder. "Do you wana go someplace so we can just sit and talk. In dept. I know your not telling me something and I hope you want to tell me it."

 "I Dunno."

He looked at me cocked his head and raised his eyebrows.

 "Well maybe a little talk wouldn't hurt." I said and smiled a little bit.

I took Brandon home and Adam and I went to the Cafe close by our houses. I told him practically my whole life story. He listened attentively. His eyes focused on mine. And when I was finally finished I could tell that all he wanted to do was hug me but he didn't. He could tell that I didn't want him to. So he cautiously moved his hand onto mine, and held my hands. His hands were soft and warm.

"I know it doesn't matter what I say and I know that what I say can't ever change anything but I want you to know that if you ever need anyone, anyone to talk to, I will always be here. If you need someone to tell anything to I will always listen. I may not know what to say or the right thing to say but I will be here. You have so many responsibilities in your life and you have so much to do. I will never truly know what your going through but I will be here to listen." Adam's look in his eyes was intense.

"Yea." I didn't want to believe him.

"Why don't you believe me?"

"Because Adam, how could I believe all of that from someone I just met?"

"The same reason you could tell me your whole life story!"

I looked at him and I questioned myself. Why did I trust him so much?

It had been about an hour and I didn't want to leave Brandon home alone for a while so we exchanged phone numbers and left. As I walked home I could stop smiling. I kept thinking about how good I felt after telling him everything. Almost like a weight was lifted. It was an amazing feeling and at that moment, I was actually happy.

He said my story was cool.. then he called me bro....

11:11
make a wish.
now.