Long but please read♥
This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty,
betrayed, and no happiness what so ever. You don't want to
laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you
don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.
You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but
you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling
apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter
what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop
loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so
much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing
part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who
hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And
then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like
you're getting happy again, but you know inside that
you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks,
you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes.
You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped
showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It
leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no
one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no
matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And
even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't
know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so
you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the
feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break
down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the
tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point
where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent
so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted
by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these
tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going
to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place.
After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull
yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to
clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold
back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you
know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t.
And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you
realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but
you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are
okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still
love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning
for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they
don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one
person could have caused all of this...