is something I think of a lot, it has haunted me. A lot
of it had to do with my parents. For example, my dad used
to smoke and was a hard core achoholic. Don't get me
wrong I love him, but when he was drunk, it was the
scariest times I have ever been through. I rememeber him
and my mom fighting, and hitting, and throwing things. It
was scary because I thought they might end up actually
murdering eachother. Me and my brother would try too
break them up, but they were so persistent. Some of these
violent moments are imprinted in my brain, and replay
over and over again. My dad wasn't the only reasons
for these fights, my mom is very pushy and controlling.
She would provoke my dad. But, it didnt mean it was
right. I guess I should be lucky that they never hit me,
but it still hurt so badly. And, to this day I have
nightmares all the time.
Thankfully, my dad is sober and doesnt smoke anymore.
Hopefully it stays that way.