Quotes added on Tuesday, January 3 2012

Venting
your hopeless and im freakin impossible, You dont understand anything i tell you, And all i want is for you to tell me you love me And when you do all i want is for you to stop because im scared of losing you, Hopeless and Impossible Go hand and hand, Hold my hand? please. Sorry if i pull away its just me being impossible but i know youll be hopeless and think i want you to grab my hand again, All i want is for you to fight for me. You say something deep and its usaully scary, Which scares me thinking you will kill yourself, if you did, I would have to kill myself too, simply because i couldnt live without you, But im too scared to kill myself, but i know you arnt, which is why im soo scared. I love you. Im scared too love you though, Im scared to care. Maybe youll read this one day. Maybe not. But I love you. I promise. Hold my hand and we can jump off a bridge together. Please stop cutting. Please please please. You look at your scars in discust but you cant get rid of your scars if you keep cutting. Gosh if anyone found my witty,I dont know what I would do. Please dont tell anyone. Please, I wrote you a very long text message last night. It was a letter, It was over 14 pages. It wasnt even everything i want to tell you but cant. I guess im impossible because i deleted it. I could never send it, just writting it scared me. Im sitting here listening to weezer, reading our conversations over and over again. I wake up everymorning And cover my face in make up not because I think im ugly [which i think i do] but because Im scared if i dont wear make up you wont look at me, I want to die my hair black. You like girls with black hair. but if I did you would know it was to impress you and you probably never talk to me again. I try to impress you alot, you know emily? you talk about how cool she is, and shylynn and kaylee and alyssa and even jordan sometimes. I wish you talked about me like that. If I had a penny for everytime i thought of you i would be poor because you never leave my mind, there for i would only have one penny. I met you in seventh grade(: in tech ed. I hated that class lol! But you were in it so it was okay, you made me that braclet. damn did i love that thing, i wore it everyday, one day acaully recently i took it off, because it started to rip. Im affraid it will brake. And when it does, and you leave me, I will have nothing left of you, there for i dont wear the braclet anymore, instead it sits on my desk in my room so i can sit there and look at it, hold it and cry, hold it and cut. Make me another braclet? please? you probably wont ever read this. im scared ive lost you. if you kill yourself, Take me down with you please, please please please.
You are my smurf.
I love you.
Forever<3

SAR*(:
all mine.

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You Should Be Able
To Make A Man Smile With Your CLothes On<3