Quotes added on Saturday, February 18 2012

NEVER go online to do 2 online quizes  when you're tired
the odds of you passing are NOT good, cause i tried 
Lol Fail ♥ 


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To be completely honest with everyone and anyone who's reading this,


I've never shed a tear, From losing a friend to someone else, From losing him, Having a heartbreak, being broken up with, Nothing.

I want to cry, believe me I do.

I guess strong people don't cry.

But when it comes to what I'm putting up with, I should be crying. My tears just won't come out and it's killing me.
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On the walk to the bus after school I didn't talk to anyone, Not even my bestfriend, Who was right next to me. I .would. speak. at. all. For the lasat 3 hours of the day. I was completely silent.
I almost cried on the way home after getting off the bus.

I came inside and went straight to my room. My mom asked me how school was going and at that moment. That short moment. I almost bursted into tears but I managed to hold it in. I ask my self now why I did that. I don't know really.

I finally realized It isn't people that are hurting me, or haters, nothing like that. Its school. I don't Understand school like other people do. They get it so easy and I. just cant.  I try so hard. The highest grade I can get in the easiet clas,s which is gym, I got a B+, which I call a 3.5.

I just don't understand why I'm like this. Its so hard for me. I've broken down in math in sixth grade before. Thats how hard it was for me. I get so frustrated I cry. I'm scared to take test's. I'm scared to read aloud cause I know I'll mess up. I'm scared to present a project cause people WILL make fun of me cause I get red in the face whenever I present.

I guess what you would call me is stupid. Yeah I have 10th grade reading level in 8th grade. But that doesn't mean I'm smart with math or anything else.

Crying for me is just hard. I don't cry and I don't know why.

I couldnt cry.

I can't cry.

And I won't cry.

W e're not close anymore
But I'll still be here,
I promise.

 

This story is titled Hometown. By me! I love feedback!
Chapter 1
Forced Marriage. Two words changed my entire life. I couldn't believe it. 
"But I just turned 18 a week ago!" I cried.
I couldn't believe this was happening to me. I mean who would they match me with? Would my future husband be happy with me, Thena? With my waist length wavy red hair, curvy frame, and blue eyes? They would probably prefer my best friend Luci. She's gorgeous. Her long platinum blond hair, delicate body, and hazel eyes. I love her but honestly I'm sometimes jealous of her.
"I know Thena but the law is once you reach 18 you have to be married." said my mother, who was basically an older version of me. 
Damn the laws. I thought. So many laws here in Hometown. Be at your house before 8 pm, never run away from Hometown, never talk to people wh aren't wearing a Hometown bracelet, never take off your Hometown bracelet, and don't ever tell a stranger about Hometown. Oh yeah and that little rule I was dealing with right now. You have to be married by the time your 18 or the marriage will be an assigned one. The punishments for these rules if they were broken are horrible. Anywhere from jail time to branding to death.
I took a deep breath. "Who is it?" I asked dreading the answer.
My mother just looked at me. "Who is it?" I asked again. Panic was beginning to creep in.
"It's....it's Jett Malkinson." she finally answered.
I almost cried. Right there, just hearing that name. I can never love him. He is one of the town's cheif officers whos wife just died. Which would explain why I was assigned him, he needed a new wife. He is a mean heartless man. I once saw him whip a child who asked him for money. The little boy couldn't have been more then 8 and he was obviously starving. His hair was dirty and matted, his face was hollowed in, and he was wearing rags that exposed his rib cage, which I could easily count the number of ribs he had. Did I mention Jett is also 33?
"Oh no....Mom please! Please there has to be something we can do!" I was fighting back tears. I hated crying.
"I'm so sorry. It's already being arranged. You're wedding will be in March." Mom said with pitty in her voice.
March? It's January now! Oh my God. Two months until my life ended. Then I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I ran to my room and cried like I have never cried before. 
Oh God, what would Luci say? She didn't turn 18 until July! Plenty of time for her to find a husband. With her looks it wouldn't be hard.
After about two hours of crying and trying to figure out what to do, I decided to go see Luci. 
I crept quietly out the front door, not wanting to run into my mother, father, brother, or sister.
Luci immidiately knew something was wrong, she read my face like a book. We headed to her room and I told her everything, crying again. She comforted me and told me it would be okay.
"But Luci it won't be!" I insisited, "They're going to expect me to have kids with him!"
"I know it not fair." She replied.
My phone beeped letting me know I had a text.
Come home now. Love Mom.
"I've got to go. I'll talk to you later." I told Luci.
"Okay. Good night." 
When I walked in the door I realized why Mom had wanted me home. We were having a family dinner.....with Jett. 
"Sit down, sweetheart." my father said. The only open seat was next to my soon to be husband. I sat down at our small, wooden dining room table.
"Hello Thena. You look beautiful tonight." Jett greeted me. 
I just smiled at him. Or at least I hope it looked like a smile.
To put it simply dinner was awkward. We ate with an occasional comment or two.
At 7:30 my mom sent my brother Flynn, who was 8 years old with brown hair and blue eyes, and my sister Misty, who was 11 with strawberry blond hair and blue eyes, up to bed. 
My mother, father, Jett, and I all went to the living room. Jett and I were on the love seat and my parents were both in a chair.
Sitting next to Jett was awful. I could feel his warmth radiating towards me. I was disgusted. Not that Jett was you know hideous or anything. He had green eyes, blond hair that was starting to gray, he wasn't skinny nor was he fat, and he had frown lines. 
Him and my father chatted about the wedding. I just sat there knowing they were talking about the end of my life. At about 7:45 Jett stood up saying he had to get home before curfew.
My mother gave me a look that clearly said walk him to the door. So repressing a sigh I stood up with him and walked him out to the porch. 
The words "good night" were just forming in my mouth when he grabbed my wrist tightly and painfully and tried to kiss me.
I turned my face away. Which happened to earn me a very painful twist of the wrist. 
"Soon enough you won't be able to turn away. We'll be married and you'll be my quiet, pretty wife, until the day you die" He spat the words at me.
I just stood there not trusting myself to speak. He gave my wrist another painful squeeze.
"I'll see you tomorrow my Thena." He breathed. Holy crap did his breath smell. With that he turned and walked away.
I pounded up the stairs to my room and sat on my bed wondering what to do. One thing I knew, I would not marry him. I had two options: to die or.....or run away. Not just from my house, no they'd find me easily, but away from Hometown.
I sat there thinking for hours. No one disturbed me. Death would mean it's all over. I'd be done. If I try to run away a few things could happen. One: I'd make it out of here and explore the world. Never ever coming back. Two: I'd be caught and either killed or branded with the Hometown mark. 
I didn't want to die. I wasn't ready for that yet. So that left me one option. I'd have to run away from Hometown.


Just remember
if it didn't matter, you wouldn't be thinking about it



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format credit: DamnnTaylerx NMQ
Kso, I started writing a story. I was wondering if you guys would be interested in reading it :$ Fave/Comment on my profile if you would... :$ Its gunna be called, "TODAY, TOMORROW && F<3REVER <3" So like i said, fave/comment if you would read it :3 Thank you everyone <3
  That boy you love, doesn't even     know how much you want him with a burning passion deep inside your heart. 




Facedown in the dirt.
She said "This doesn't hurt."
She said. "I finally had enough."

You tell me that you'll consider me,
& then in the same night, you go back out with your ex, leaving me in misery. 
Oh, and that ex? My bestfriend.
Thanks for completely making me feel horrible. 

Iscream
very loudly.


1D

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