I
Remember How I Loved
Your Big Brown Eyes.
They Were Amazing
And That was one of the
amazing things about
you. I was so Jealous
Of your Eyes and your
life.
Oh how i wanted to be
as pretty as you and i
always wanted to be as
strong as you.But i
Guess
You stayed too strong
for too long
I remember Logging into
facebook on april 2.. i
remembered how your
brother and sister were
saying to pray for
you.. I remember asking
my dad what was
happening, and that
dreadful look in his
face.. I remember him
telling me that you
werent going to make
it.
I started crying and i
told my dad i wanted to
go to my mom.
He brought me to her
work and i came up to
her and started crying
in her arms. we went to
the hostpital and we
ended up waiting until
9, because those were
the start of the
visiting hours..
I went in there with my
dad..
Your face was so
swollen.. I didn't
know what to do.. what
to say..
I Stood there and I saw
you open up your Big
Brown Eyes Open wide..
I got so scared..
:'(
i turned and
cried into my dads
arms.
i couldnt handle seeing
you like that.. that
was the first night i
knew about this.. the
second night I was able
to see you and talk to
you without crying..
Everyone was there.
they were all
shocked..
the third day, i got a
text message from one
of my friends.
They said they
were making the
decision
to Pull the plug
or not...
I couldnt breathe... i
didnt want to.
that was when i was in
the car with my dad
driving to the
hostpital, we turned
around and got my
mom.
We got there and
everyone was quiet, you
could hear the soft
cries from everyone.. I
got there and the first
person i saw was chloe.
she had tears streaming
down her face.. i
walked up to her and i
cried into her arms.
Hannah came up behind
us and hugged the both
of us.
we waited and waited
and your brother came
out and said they
werent pulling the plug
today.. but they were
going to pull it
tomorrow. i remember
staying the night in
the hostpital, because
i wanted to be there to
see my bestfriend
goodbye... but before i
knew i was going to
stay the night, i
went in there with my
mom and i said
"Goodbye Jannah I
Love you so much,
I'm going to miss
you... I love
you"You opened
your eyes and you
looked at me.. you
looked so scared I
almost turned away in
fear.. i never wanted
to see you like that..
after i spent the night
in the hostpital with
your sister they
decided not to do
it that morning,
everyone came back
during
7:00
they told us that they
were going to pull it
tomorrow morning
instead.. they said to
say our goodbyes..
I remember going in
there with my older
brother.. tears
streaming down my
face.. i didnt want to
say goodbye again..but
i did...
The next day i didnt
get to see you..my
parents told me we were
going to see you the
day after... I
didn't get to see
your breathing body
again..
You
said in your letter
that if you were gone
no one would
care..
but
almost everyone in town
was
there...
Everyone
was at your funeral..
EVERYONE... Seeing you
being lowered Tore me
apart.. and seeing my
mom tears pouring down
her face, crying
loudly.. shredded me
into pieces.... Its
almost been a year
since ive seen you..
April 6th was the last
time i saw your
beautiful face in
person... even though
its a month away..its
tearing me apart.. i
cant believe its been
so long...
Jannah I miss you so
much..
R.I.P
Jannah