Teacher: Okay, now
students we're going to do a self-image experiement!
Me: fuckfuckfukcufuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
Teacher: List everything
you DON'T like about yoursel to start.
Me: Wellllllll;
My face, my thys, my weight, my face, my confidence issuse, the
way I trust to easily, my face, the way I hur the people I love,
I fall to hard and too fast, and my face.
Teacher: now list everything you LIKE about
yourself!
Me: lol
"There are
certain people who come into your life and leave a mark.
Their place in your heart is tender; a bruise of longing, a pulse
of unfinished
business. Just hearing their name pushes and pulls at you in a
hundred
different ways, and when you try to define those hundred ways,
words are useless."
nmf
My judgements clouded
Chp
5
I heard the
water splashing and i was trying to get away. " Niall put me
down! " I squealed. "Put you down? Okay. " Before
i could say anything i was thrown and i felt the water. I stood
up and Niall was laughing. " Niall can i have a hug please?
" I asked inocently. " No you can't." He said
and smiled but i was already running at him and i tackled him
into the water. " That wasn't very nice! " He said
when he finally stopped laughing. " Well you know throwing
me wasn't exactly nice either. " I said and got up and
started walking over to Louis, Liam and Zayn. They had already
set up a couple towels for everyone to lay on. I plopped down on
one and Niall layed down on the one next to me.
"Shouldn't you be worried about burning since your
Irish?" I said and smiled. "Funny." He said and
grinned. "Umm i'm going to go for a walk, Zayn, Liam
come?" Louis said and got up and they all nodded. I saw
Niall give Louis a look but he quickly turned back to me. "
Can we go get ice cream? " I asked. " Yes! You know
somewhere thats good?" " Of course i do. I've lived
here my whole life." I smiled and got up. We started walking
and found the little ice cream shop i always go to. " Hey
Liz. " I said and waved. I was always jealous of Liz. She
was so pretty she had auburn colored hair and striking green
eyes. " Hey Nel the usual?" She asked not paying much
attention to Niall which i didn't mind. "Yes
please." I said. " Make that two. " Niall said and
she nodded. She handed us our ice cream and we walked back to the
beach but we heard screams coming from behind us. " Niall
.... " I looked back and saw probably a hundred girls
running for us. " Where do we go you should know where your
going!" He said both of us panicing. "Okay follow.
" I said and started running. I grabbed his hand so i
wouldn't loose him then i heard the flashes. Cameras. Great.
Then i saw a small side street and turned down it, there was
another and we stopped there.
We saw the heard of people run by the street and i exhaled the
breath i'd been holding in. Niall was still holding my hand
and i didn't really mind but he looked at my and dropped his
eyes and let go. I was blushing again and maybe he was too.
" Sorry about that. " He said starting to walk again.
" No it was my fault we should have stayed on the beach.
" He shook his head. " Those girls weren't running
after you they were after me so im sorry. " He said looking
right into my eyes. I must have melted because he started to
smile. " You're blushing. " He said nudging me. I
looked down. " I am not. " He laughed and i hit him in
the stomach and started walking. " Back to the beach. "
I said and he jogged to catch up to me. " Hey you can't
leave me like that i might get lost! " He said playfully.
" Well maybe i should have walked faster i said and grinned.
" Not nice. " He said giving me that puppy dog face.
" Mmm you look like a lost puppy. " " Thats the
look i was going for. " He said and smiled.
We got back to the beach and the boys and Gabby looked up at us.
" Where were you two? " Louis asked raising his
eyebrows. " Running away from cameras and fans. Nothing too
exciting. " Niall said running his hand through his hair.
" Niall you forgot that we got ice cream that was the most
exciting part! " I said acting disgusted. " HOW COULD I
FORGET THAT! " He screached. People gave him weird looks and
turned away. " Niall you love food and you forgot that you
got some? Whats gotten into you? " Liam asked playfully and
all the other guys laughed. Was there something i was missing?
Niall just gave Liam a look and sat
down.
So this
is going to be long,but i need to get this off my chest. My
grandma lived with me and my family for 8 years. Out if those 8
years, we had many fights and i was mean to her.She would
always ask me to brush her hair or just lay next to
her,and i would get annoyed. She died 2 weeks ago
today. But it wasnt all bad. I loved her so much. She was
my best friend. We laughed and cried together. I wish I could
just go back,and be nicer to her. But I can't. I regret it
soo much. I hate myself for it. Be nice to the people you
love,one day they're going to be gone, and you won't
get them back.