Quotes added on Thursday, April 26 2012
I lie awake just to convince myself this wasn't just a dream
'Cause you were right here and I should have taken the chance
But I got so scared and I lost the moment again
It's all that I can think about, oh, you're all that I can think about
One Direction - i Should've Kissed You, <3
You think you know someone
and then
they go and prove you wrong.
This morning on the bus, i thought about your funeral. just the though alone I started crying, like literally crying in the middle of the bus because i couldn't bare the though of loosing you, for a second. i thought what if i never got to hold you again, look at the stars or hold your hand. or tell you how much i love you. so,
I just want to remind you of a few things.
Well a lot of things actually. First off, as bad as it
seems now we are teenagers, we are emotionally unstable
anyway. But some where along the way is happiness.
Second you, you. I know you hate yourself but I
literally look at you like an angel. that picture you
sent me with no make up on the other day, just stared
at it though of how beautiful you are with no effort.
How you most be heaven sent, and sent to me by mistake
because I don't deserve anyone as beautiful as you
in my life. It's not just your cute nose, deep eyes
and the way they look into mine. or the way your hair
always seems to sit perfect and always looks good no
matter what you do with it. Or the way, even though I
know you're unhealthy and your size makes me want
to break down and cry sometimes cause I get scared and
worried, you still manage to make something as simple
as skin and bones the most beautiful creation to ever
exist. the most wonderful thing, the most perfect
thing. there is nothing, and i mean nothing more
beautiful than you and the way your soul glows. your
personality, is just so caring. and you hate it but
it's amazing. you care about me so much, make me
feel like a super hero when really you're my reason
for everything. you make me feel worth something when
really you're the one worth everything. you are
simply the most beautiful thing inside and out and the
best and most amazing thing that ever happened to me or
ever will. i know some where a mistake was made to give
you too me, but i am glad it happened because though i
don't deserve you, i will do anything an everything
in my power to keep you in my life. you have been the
best part of me since day one, and my love for you is
ad infinitum. it's simple, you are the most
beautiful wonderful creation, even destroying yourself
you're more beautiful than any angel. and i love
you, so much.
Oh and also, never forget you are my bestfriend. and i am lost, alone, and nothing without you by my side, and i mean it.
...This made me start tearing up. omfg. <333 just felt like putting this out there. c:
When people give me compliments i feel like there lying to me ..
I'm letting go. So throw away my pictures, rip apart my letters, and add it to the fire. Are you surprised, my love? I'll take a piece of you and then I'll be on my way. I hope it's what you wanted. I cannot believe this happened. Yeah, all the love is there. And even though it hurt to watch you leave, see just how strong I can be.
nmq/nmf
It's lucky I dream about you every night otherwise sleep would be torture. I would miss you to much to bear
Goodnight witty <3
Twenty
Questions
Chapter
7
part
two
(the things in italics mean they are part of a memory or
story)
He sounded
unsure of the question, like he was almost positive the answer
would be no.
Without thinking, I got up and
walked over to him.
I stood right in front of
him.
I was shorter than him. He seemed
almost five inches taller than me.
I still wasn’t thinking
about what I was doing when I reached up and lightly tilted his
chin, so he was looking at me.
I stared into his
eyes.
They were right there.
We were so close.
His eyes were gorgeous…
they were never one color.
At the moment they looked kind of
gray with hints of green and blue as the light danced across
them.
I got lost in them.
I felt his breath on my
face.
It was warm and smelt like
spearmint.
I closed my eyes and breathed him
in.
He smelt like axe…how did
he smell so good in such a place?
I could feel him right
there.
I opened my eyes.
I took a step closer to him,
putting a hand on his chest.
He seemed frozen- unsure of what
to do.
I looked into his eyes once
again.
He met my gaze.
Then he put his hand up on my
cheek.
I slowly closed my eyes as we
both leaned in.
I stood on my toes as I pressed my lips onto his.
And I swear, the second our lips
connected, the world stopped.
He gently put his other hand on
the small of my back and I leaned into him even more.
My heart was fluttering inside my
chest.
I kept one hand on him; it was
now squished between the two of us.
I picked up my other hand, and
put it on the back of his head, tangling my fingers in his soft,
brown hair.
Our lips fit together
perfectly.
Like two puzzle pieces finding
where they belong.
We stayed like that- kissing- for
what seemed like forever before we both pulled away.
But that forever wasn’t
long enough for me, I wanted to lean back into him and kiss him.
Aga
Instead, I looked up into his
eyes and sighed.
Biting my lip to keep me from
smiling like an idiot.
It was perfect.
He was perfect.
“Does that answer your
question?” I asked.
“What question?” he
remarked, obviously as dazed as I was from the kiss.
I was about to laugh at his
cluelessness when the room started spinning.
There was a splitting pain in my
head.
Carter snapped back into his
normal self when he noticed.
“Brielle, are you
okay?” he asked, taking a step back to get a better look at
me.
I opened my mouth to talk but no
words would come out.
My head hurt. So
badly.
I reached up to hold my head as I
sank to my knees.
I was on the floor by Carter’s feet
when images of two people kissing started flickering through my
mind.
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