I remember when people would tell me "There's never a time when you're not smiling" Honestly, I miss hearing that. It makes me realize how much I have changed, for the worst. I'm constantly thinking of negative things, I used to be that one optimistic person, about everything. I used to be my own person and never let anyone control what I was gonna do. That day, when I was told I was more of a follower than a leader, it really shot straight to my heart. That sounds rediculous, that something so easily said by another person could affect me so much, its not like its something that was meant to hurt me but I was never like that before. I miss the girl I used to be. I smiled, I laughed, I made other people laugh, I made other people feel good about themselves, I was friends with everyone, I miss that. I hate all thats changed about myself. Instead, I'm crabby 90% of the time, I cant make others laugh, I find myself being rude to people, there's people that don't like me. I'm not okay with all that. This isn't me, this isn't who I was supposed to become. Where am I? Who am I? I lost myself.
Dad: why are you crying?
Girl: my boyfriend dumped me!
Dad: (grabs shot gun) I'll be back.
while later dad comes back,
Girl: what the hell! why did you go kill him?
Dad: I didn't
Girl: where did you go?
Dad: to get you icecream
Girl: why the hell did you bring the shot gun?!
Dad: so I could get it for free