Quotes added on Wednesday, August 22 2012
Just keep moving, it will all get better.
Guy: Oh no I'm screwed.
This week was the first time I ever cut myself. I know most of you will say ' I do that all the time' but you dont know me. I'm that girl. That girl who is alway spossed to be happy. The one who smiles when someone calls her fat. The one who makes people stop cuting, not the girl who does it. I cut myself. I swore I that I would never have to say that. I cut. I did. The words don't feel right coming off my tounge. I've never fetl depression. Sure, I've cried, I've hated life. Who hasn't. I've never had to fake smile, I've always been that smily happy girl. Happy for no reason. That was me, but I just feel, sad. Not worthy. You know? Now, I'm not suicidal, unless thinking about suicide a few times makes you suicidal. I'm sure I don't think about it the same way most of you do. I don't think about hanging myself and people mssing me. I think about walking infront of a bus. No one would know why, or how I felt. I guess they would call it a mystery. In a few years people would be over it. I was that girl.
That girl is gone. she is dead.
I don't have a big interist about ending my life. Why? because I know people out there that have got it much worse than me. if they can stick it out, I can to.
I'm sorry but I just had to tell someone what I've been feeling.
The Diary Of Jane
Chapter Two
**The Year 2030**
Unknown's POV
I ran my fingers through my hair and brushed my tears away, "Jane.." I whispered. A tear fell on the diary and I quickly wiped it away. "Daddy!" I put a smile on my face and looked at Jane and I's daughter.
"Addy!" She jumped into my open arms with a giggle, "What're you doing?" she asked. "Just reading Mommy's old diary."
"Mommy had a diary too?" she asked in disbelief. I laughed, "Yes, see?" she positined her self on my lap so we could both look at the diary together. "You're only on page two?"
"Yes, do you want to read it with me?"
She nodded her head furiously and I smiled, "Dear Diary.."
**The year 2011**
Jane's POV
I climbed onto my bed and opened my diary to page two, I talked to him again today. It was magical. I grabbed my pen and began writing:
'Dear Diary, I talked to him again today. Is it weird that I've been imagining a future for us? Probably, I just met him yesterday, and all.. But, even if it's not by him, I want to have a daughter when I get older. It's my biggest wish for the future. I've always loved the name Adeline, and she can be Addy for short! Doesn't that sounds cute, diary?
Oh! And guess what?
I got his phone number today! I'm really scared to text him though.. what if I say something stupid? What if he doesn't like me that way? Heck! What if he has a girlfriend? Ugh. I don't want to think about that.'
There was a knock at my bedroom door, "Jane! Brittney's here!" my brother called. I smiled and wrote: 'Love, Jane.' before closing my diary and placing it in my desk drawer.
**The Year 2030**
Unknown's POV
I smiled and I saw Addy look a little sad, "What's wrong Adeline?" She looked up at me and gave me a small smile, "Mommy's wish came true... she had me." I smiled and kissed her forehead, "Yes it did."
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Author's Note: How was that? Please comment and let me know :)<3
Everyone is sleeping, while she remains awake,
leaving reminders on her body of how
much she hates herself.
-CHAPTER THREE-
Alli's P.O.V.
I walked inside, shut the door and ran up to my room smiling the whole time. Ryan. Ryan had just asked me out.
As i changed and brushed my teeth i thought about why he just suddenly asked me out. I layed in bed for a while
thinking about what our date was going to be like and i slowly drifted asleep. I woke up at 7:00am to the
agonizing sound of my arlam clock that i for got to turn off last night. Trying to fall back asleep was a waste
of time so i slowly god out of bed and headed downstairts for breakfast. I ate my pancakes very slovly still
half asleep. After that is was 9 so i watched T.V. for a while and went back up stairs and took a shower. I
let my hair dry by its self, when ever i did this it was slightly wavy. I applied my make-up lightly.
I put on my Taylor Bright Green Denimshorts, and my Ornate Cross Chain Vest, with my Steve Madden Braidey Flat
Sandals, and a little spray of my favorite Marc Jacobs perfume. I already had on my ring that my
dad left for me. He died of cancer before i was born and he left the ring. So, i added my put on my
favorite cross necklace and my neon blue bracelet as i heard the doorbell ring. I unpluged my phone from its
charger as i ran downstairs to open the door to a smiling Ryan holding a red rose. I could feel my cheeks
getting hot as i took the rose from him and gentaly smelled it, "Ryan its beautiful, thank you" "like you"
he said as i looked up at him. I put the rose in a tall cup of water and walked back to Ryan. He walked me to
his car and opened the passenger door for me and i got in and shut the door as he was getting in the driver
side. He started the car and backed out of my driveway. "Where are we going Ryan?" i asked anxously, "its a
suprise."
Alli's date outfit- http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=56962121
you're ugly. you wear too much
make-up. you're too fat. you're too skinney. your hair is
too short. your hair is too long and tangled. you're skin
toan is too dark. you're skin toan is too light. you
can't talk to boys. you talk to boys too much. you're too
girly-girl. you're too tom-boyish. your ears are too small.
you have elephant ears. you can't spell. you're too
smart. you're really stupid. ew you study. you're such a
teacher's pet. wow, you got a 4O in a test, loser. you're
too short. you're too tall. you have blonde hair. you have
black hair. you have red hair. you have brown hair. you dye your
hair too much. you're glasses are weird. ew, you have braces.
your hair is too frizzy. your stomach is too flat. you don't
have a flat stomach. you have really big boob. you have no boobs.
you have too much hair on your arms. your legs are hairy. you
have too many freckles. you cut. you're depressed. you want
attention. you think you're all that. you're loud.
you're too quiet. you can't talk. you don't listen.
you're so annoying. you're ugly. you wear alot of
make-up. you're too fat. you're too skinney. your hair is
too short. your hair is too long and tangled. you're skin
toan is too dark. you're skin toan is too light. you
can't talk to boys. you talk to boys too much. you're too
girly-girl. you're too tom-boyish. your ears are too small.
you have elephant ears. you can't spell. you're too
smart. you're really stupid. ew you study. you're such a
teacher's pet. wow, you got a 4O in a test, loser. you're
too short. you're too tall. you have blonde hair. you have
black hair. you have red hair. you have brown hair. you dye your
hair too much. you're glasses are weird. ew, you have braces.
your hair is too frizzy. your stomach is too flat. you don't
have a flat stomach. you have really big boob. you have no boobs.
you have too much hair on your arms. your legs are hairy. you
have too many freckles. you cut. you're depressed. you only
want attention. you think you're all that. you're too
loud. you're too quiet. you can't talk. you don't
listen. you're so annoying .
you're ugly. you
wear a lot of makeup. you're fat. you're too skinney. your hair is too
short. your hair is really tangled.
julietechoecho
